this morning after a wonderful weekend,
i come back to reality and under the brad pitt entry:

“You are a 43 year old man. Grow the fuck up and settle down already. Give the young black gays something to aspire to. Ain’t you tired Jimmy? Go watch some CraigTheWriter videos on YouTube and get your shit together. Old ass queens make me fucking sick.”

ouch!
i JUST wrote about mikayla raines taking her own life over online bullying.
what a way to be an example a week later.
it was from screen name “YN“.
this didn’t feel like it was coming from a young n!gga tho.
the wording felt like an old gay pineapple projecting his venom on me.
so let’s break this down…

the oldest millennials are in their 40s now.
millennials have lived to see it all:

wars
natural disasters
a terrorist attack that changed our lives forever
a whole pandemic
2 (maybe 3?) recessions
the rise and brain rot of people under social media
the first social media platforms
the transition from playing outside to living vicariously through a phone
presidents who have fucked lives up
rihanna probably never coming out with another album again
white children shooting up schools and Lord knows what else

so to go through all of that to reach our 40s is an amazing.
my best friend didn’t even get to live to see his 30s.
regardless:

43
53
63
33
133

read this carefully:

Kudos to gays of all ages who are living and growing up in their terms.
Fuck this ageism bullshit that the straights love to pull on each other.

what does growing TF even looking like?
for this comment,
it all stems from finding a wolf and settling down.
who even said and fonted that i’m looking to settle down?
not only that:

There are plenty of people I’ve watched settle down and are up for divorce/break ups rn

and not even good divorces/break ups either.
they went from “relationship goals” to “i hate this muthafucka“.
i’m seeing kids in the middle of these nasty separations and all i do is:

i’m so glad it ain’t me.
this entire comment is the equivalent of:

“When are you gonna get married?”
“When are you gonna have kids?”
“When you gonna give me some grandbabies?”

“God Mom/Dad!
You’re always bugging me with this shit!
Why don’t you go have the kids and leave me alone.”

i’m sure if i did all those things,
followed the life playbook,
and gave “the young black gays” something to aspire to,
it STILL wouldn’t be enough.
i mean,
look at how people treat beyonce?
she settled down but people are foaming at the mouth for her to divorce her husband.
btw: she is 43 going on 44 this year.

and finally,
shout out to craigthewriter:

…but comparing me to another black gay male?

diabolical but expected.
this comment reeks of mentally and emotional abusive parent.
if they are speaking to a stranger on the internet like this:

Imagine how they’ll talk to their kids when they’re disappointed?

yikes.

anyhoo,
that comment was disappointing to read after such a good weekend.
i hope this person continues to have the life they deserve.
i’m manifesting for them that they learn lessons to be a better person every day.
if we really want to go there:

That comment is definitely not what young black gays should aspire to.

mean gays under throw away accounts is “aren’t you tired jimmy?” energy.
don’t put your exhaustion on me.