He broke your heart.
He broke you.
Now he is in another situation on social media.
They look happy.
You looked happy once upon a time with him too.
So seeing them both,
it has annihilated your self-esteem and worth.
that was me yesterday.
it rocked my world because i was expecting the opposite.
i was expecting him to fuck up another person’s life.
this one seems different.
so my inner control panel wanted to revert to “old jamari“.
i wanted to lay around,
think about why i’m not worth it,
and compare myself to him(and everyone).
i was about to put on sad music to be an emotional wreck but…
i put on some hip hop and started feeling like the baddest in the building.
i been on heavy drake kick lately and reflected to the take care album.
he has tracks on there about being hurt but it’s different than r&b.
hip hop always comes with cockiness and “i’ll be good” attitude.
i listened to that album all day and a few taylor swift tracks.
not her early work,
but the newest versions of “this love” and “wildest dreams” from 1989.
One for the ages
But if the story’s over
Why am I still writing pages?…”
by night time:
I was in the frame of mind that I didn’t lose anything important.
I went to therapy to become my best and most powerful self.
He jumps into relationships to manipulate others into helping him see/be his best and most powerful self.
we are not the same.
when you’re feeling down,
you can listen to sad shit.
pull out your saddest r&b and cry your eyes out.
after thats over,
turn it around and fill your cup with music to help you see your worth.
it’s always been hip hop.
it could be whatever is upbeat.
you aren’t what has left you.
May your neighbors respect you
Trouble neglect you, angels protect you
And heaven accept you…