life has a way of humbling us.
we don’t realize it until all the pieces come together.
Some of us are currently setting up the play for a future humbling.
mi has no more allies.
everyone who had her back has either died or distanced themselves.
her cousin was a good person tbh.
her death really fucked up many people.
they had to close down her job for the day just to mourn.
i found out yesterday…
it looks like they’re having fun without you.
you’ve called and texted to no answer.
you creep on their social media and it’s “the life of the party“.
they’re up in everyone else’s social media but yours.
it makes you feel a certain way and you can be honest about that.
I want The Foxhole to never apologize for feeling human.
so you spend your days wondering what you did.
did you insult them?
did someone say something to them that turned them off from you?
why are you getting the cold shoulder with no context?
it sucks because i’ve been there.
i was telling my therapist about a similar situation and he hit me with a quote that shook me…
the popular table.
it’s filled with the fine and the (mildy) fascinating.
they take pride in being “the cool kids” while looking down from their high horses.
they cast shame on those who “can’t sit with us“.
nothing has really changed since high school.
you dare want to sit at this table?
well you gotta have one (if not more) of these things:
Not be Opps
Social media following
when one of the leaders of this table deems you as worthy,
only then will you be let into their realm.
you’ll join the group chat and hear all the gossip,
along with all their bts fucked up issues.
as someone who has sat at popular tables and hung with cool kids,
i’m here to font..
i was so sad over this one wolf.
so much shit was going between him and i.
i felt like i was going crazy tbh.
some people can have a powerful energy that draws you to them.
you can both be drawn to each other,
but if it one is fighting their attraction to you,
it can lead to a lot of emotional warfare.
so all last year,
i was listening to heartbreak songs and albums.
fuckin’ driver’s license from olivia rodrigo…
the chorus of this song made me feel like she was singing my feelings out loud.
i use to keep this part on repeat real heavy too:
I still see your face in the white cars, front yards
Can’t drive past the places we used to go to
‘Cause I still fuckin’ love you, babe (ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
Sidewalks we crossed
I still hear your voice in the traffic, we’re laughing
Over all the noise
God, I’m so blue, know we’re through
But I still fuckin’ love you, babe (ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
anything that expressed my sadness was all i wanted to listen to.
i was listening to toni braxton’s album “speak” for the first time.
it was more of a heartbreak album but i found it to be so boring.
i realized something…
dating in 2021 is really interesting.
it’s interesting for both straights and gays.
Straight males are “dating” like gay males.
i loveeeeeeeeee when the straights think they are so different from us.
because gay males are getting fucked in the sacred “ass”?
straight males fuck vixens in their asses.
some straight males love getting their butt cheeks munched during head.
because some gay males are feminine?
some straight males are feminine and don’t even realize it.
because some gay males are masculine?
some gay males are more masculine and alpha than straight males.
what are even talking about?
Both communities are horny,
and want to waste folk’s time out here.
a vix-bi sent me this video about what straight males are experiencing while dating.
if you look closely tho,
it could be the dating woes in gay dating too…
i got a word for the foxhole that has been sitting inside my spirit.
ima try to pull it out nice…
there is someone(s) right now,
that you don’t even realize,
that is jealous and envious of you.
they actually want what you have.
we don’t even realize we’re better than them because we’re dick ridin’ (and not in the good way).
i think what happens is…