you ever notice in the 90s black movies,
the hot wolf always falls for a bonafide main character bitch?
sanaa lathan.
jada pinkett.
gabrielle union.
they always played some straight up bitches in those movies.
the main character was always on some,
“i like you but you gonna have your shit all the way together to deal with me”?

i’ve been stewing on a video i saw a few days ago.
it was a fed up vixen venting about how black males are hard to love.
this is the video here via “the neighborhood talk“:

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i can sit up here,
fonting about how “ain’t shit” many black males are…

but ima keep it 110%…

i need to font something off my chest.
so my x-twitter feed is a mess.
like,
nuts.

i can’t even open that in public.

it’s my fault though because if you didn’t know,
if you go down a certain rabbit hole,
you’ll find all the good porn.
sometimes,
those ratchets upload the whole video on there.

it’s giving tumblr 2.0

be careful because i had to block some shit.
anyhoo,
i ended up on a video that had me stuck but then…
then…
i was rudely awakened…

sometimes,
we don’t realize what tough seasons do to us.
after we go through it and come out the other side,
other people can notice the impact all that weight carried.
so i sent my cousin a VN earlier to wish her a happy birthday.
she responded about how i sound and it floored me…

i’ve seen some black folks talk and font about how they’d handle slavery differently.
the “i’d fight back” crew amuse me because they claim they’d cause all kind of upheaval.

everyone wants to be the hero to go down in history,
right?
i’ve haven’t seen the:

i’d turn my slave master out so i can be the special gay house negro.

…but first time for everything.
BIG DADDY aka @heart0faking responded to a tweet titled.
“dating someone who would have sold you back in the day is crazy to me“.
this is what he allegedly fonted on that hyena’s x-twitter…

i like to believe that some wolves i met liked the IDEA of me,
but are terrified of the emotions they feel because of me.
meaning:

they come in my life,
become hooked off my energy and vibe,
sexually attracted to me,
but still wanted to make sure i knew they liked vixens.

…yet,
when they dropped by mask,
they were a whole different person with me.
its like you get the boyfriend without the title.
i do believe that is why many of our ends felt like “break ups”.
i think many gay males have experienced this with DL and bi males.

society has taught them they need to be with vixens,
but they have a special closeness with other males.
they still treat vixens like shit,
but will do almost anything for another male.

if you happened to be a gay male they got close to,
they’ll do everything BUT claim.
so everyone is riled up over what this bi male said today.
@theycallmehits said he is only sexually attracted to other males…

i took my ass back to therapy today.
i didn’t realize just how bad living with that person hurt me.
it was actually really affecting me mentally,
spiritually,
and emotionally.
after i told my new therapist everything that went down,
that i had to compress within an hour,
they said…