you gotta prove it if you’re trying to get in (me)

i live in new yawk,
but mentally,
i’ve been in another country at a wellness retreat.
when i shut down my personal social media accounts,
the intent was to come back once i was healed.
that means work on this therapy shit hardbody.
foxhole,
i can say i’m well on my way to being healed and reclaiming my time.
i feel like serena van der woodson coming back to ny in the first episode of og gossip girl.


on my final purge today,
on a brand new moon,
my phone’s contact list lost some serious weight.
that hoe is skinny af.
the way i see things now is this…

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romeo, romeo, where art tho dat eggplant, romeo? (on his onlypans, duh)

*the following is rated r.
viewer discretion is advised.

a wolf who knows how to cook will always be sexy.
if i planned on eating whatever he cooked,
i wouldn’t be able to eat until after i got some.
do i really need to go into detail about what i mean…

romeo johnson aka @giraffe908 got our attention with marvin bienaime.
he posed nude for one of his photoshoots that he did.
romeo does a segment on his instagram called “onlypans“.
it’s where he cooks food for us but naked.


can we have him for dinner instead?
for his latest segment,
he cooked penne carbonara and his world-famous empanadas.
he even showed us the size of the eggplant too…

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i’m ret to pack my sh*t and go.

foxhole,
┬áit’s time.
it’s time for me to go because i’m tired of being here.
what’s happening inside me is bursting.
#idobebussin
so it’s definitely time

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“now i’m that futha-muckin n*gga and you’re blocked”

when i was dealing with the work wolf saga,
i kept a private journal of my feelings around the end of that situation.
i came across it in my files and read some of the entries in it.

Foxhole,
I legit cringed.

the part when he refused to speak to me by stonewalling me,
the words i used about myself,
the actual praying he would speak to me again,
and the emotional begging i wrote in hopes we would reconnect again.
i remember how broken i was when i think back to that moment in my life.
the part of having to see him at work every day,
us not speaking,
and him legit using his own emotional warfare to purposely hurt my feelings.
was i innocent in how it crashed and burned?
probably not,
but i don’t think we were meant to be friends in the long run tbh.
i saw this post from chris brown on the shade room and i fully understood it…

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“are you trying to chill and go back to the crib to smash after? whats the dress code?”

next year,
God spare my life and raise my abundance,
i want to do more out in these forests.
after these last 2 years of being in the crib,
i’m ready to be outside again.
you’ll always know when you’re ready.
shows like insecure and this new gossip girl reminds me of how much fun i used to have.


one minute i’m at a restaurant and the next i’m at a recording studio.
this city can take you on many different adventures.
so i was watching the new episodes of gossip girl and one of the characters,
julien calloway,
said something i plan on implementing in my social life.
she was talking to her father about going out for thanksgiving and she said…

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lemme find out teddy pendergrass helps boost your law of attraction

i strongly believe in the law of attraction.
i believe that what you give your attention to can manifest in your life.
some of us are powerful creators that when we think or ask for some-thing/one,
it can come to fruition in a matter of seconds.

I feel the secret is you have to be reallllllly connected to every aspect of yourself.

the pretty vixen is a master manifester.
she has manifested her amazing life and the people in it.
i’ll never forget when she manifested her boss out of her life.
almost like a month ago when we were talking,
around the time drake came out with his latest album,
she told me:

“I’m done listening to Drake and hip-hop for a while.”

crazy enough,
i’ve been indulging in drake and some hip-hop pretty heavy.
so i asked her why

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