a break or a “mental vacation” is what i use to call it.
it’s needed when we need to get our mentals back in order.
you will be surprised to know much taking a break can literally reset your chakras.
we live in two worlds currently.
THE REAL WORLD
SOCIAL MEDIA WORLD
they can blend into each other and cause confusion.
we get addicted to the likes and the dopamine hits of temporary attention.
it is a bleak world to be living in.
i felt like that yesterday…
i’m outside and it’s cold.
the wind burns my flesh as it blows against my skin.
even with thick fur covering my body,
it still feels like a knife slicing each part of me.
it’s a feeling that can’t be explained,
but i’ve experienced it time and time again.
as i watch the other animals playing beyond the fence,
the coldness comes from the dim feeling of being uninvited.
i’m on the outside.
my fur isn’t shiny nor do i have connections to other forests that are unknown.
all i ever wanted as to feel wanted.
i’m not like everyone else and i’m not for everyone.
life has made that painfully clear at times.
i don’t follow the herd mentality that the other animals fall victim too.
maybe they aren’t victims?
maybe this is just where they want to be and i’m not allowed.
i’m outside and it’s cold.
being on the outside,
while you watch others on the inside,
can feel like being in a cold prison cell.
you’re inside while everyone is out there moving freely without you.
it can be a tough lesson in where you stand amongst your peers.
sometimes it’s out of spite; others it’s no fault of their own.
i wrote on the foxhole ig the other day…
we have defining moments in our lives that can change the dynamic in a snap.
i’ve been there.
i didn’t realize the impact of losing my parentals and best friend would have on me.
one of my best friends is experiencing a defining moment now…
when someone has a particular way of doing things consistently,
that can be a sign of who the person is.
we often ignore patterns because we hope things to be different.
we saw glimpses of those patterns as we got to know them,
but we chose to ignore it.
“When a person shows you who they are,
believe them.” – The great and late,
one of my favorite quotes.
we like to think we are these special snowflakes when it comes to others,
that we’ll treated differently than those from their past,
but i’m here to font you…
foxes move through the forests stealthy without disturbing the other animals.
we are known to be cunning and observant.
i can be very quiet about the things i don’t want to be shared with the world.
i can be in a whole relationship with another dude,
be around them in public settings,
and the public wouldn’t know unless they saw my texts.
this is why i can font that i move silently with a baller wolf.
as you know,
i shared that i’ve been working with a good friend on her web series.
since the foxhole is my people,
i wanted to share an exclusive that made it so real today…
i’m being dramatic af with that title.
i’m good tho.
many of us have an issue with leading folks on.
you might have that issue.
i’ve been led on and i’m guilty of doing it at times.
we meet folk and not really be feeling them,
but we flirt/sleep with them in “the moment”.
they are usually a convenience to entertain until the right one comes along.
my straight home-wolf,
who i consider my straight boyfriend,
actually did that to another gay fox he met…