I had to ask myself this weekend if I’m a fake azz fuckin’ bitch.

there are some people who have blamed me for things but little did they know:

They did something to me but instead of addressing it,
I kept my mouth shut to “keep the peace”.

i learned “keeping the peace” as a survival mechanism.
i peeped how they moved and i learned to adjust accordingly.
some people i distanced myself from; others i learned i can’t tell them certain things.
honestly:

That is how I lost my last job.

my last boss threw me under the bus for something i didn’t do,
so i bowled their ass under there for the same thing they did to me.
the look of shock on their face in-front of their boss brought me so much joy tbh.
i was sick of her shit.

But in all of my disappointment with other people,
I never did what Doja Cat did when she met one of her fans.

this right here…

a few months ago,
i asked karaoke if she was gonna get out there and protest.
it was around the time of the first protest and it was on a saturday:

“I didn’t do anything where I need to beg for forgiveness.
I’m painting my living room.”

i asked another friend,
a black vixen,
about their stance on protesting:

“I got out there and voted for who I needed to vote for.
America showed they didn’t feel the same.
I did my part and they can figure out the rest.”

as for me…

I believe everyone should work at least one year in a customer service position.
Retail or working in a restaurant.

one of my first jobs was working in a fast food restaurant.
HATED IT.
HATED IT.
HATED IT.
it taught me very quickly that i don’t “do” food service.
my next job,
and many jobs after that,
was working retail.
i have done retail in many popular and high end stores.
i know what “working a black friday” means and the ping of terror it gives me.
retail is where i learned…

i don’t know if The Foxhole has watched scream,
but there was a scene where gale weathers tells her camera man,
kenny:

“Kenny,
tell me I’m dreaming!”

i must be dreaming with the new president and the owner of x-twitter’s fall out.
our president said this:

NOW – Trump says he is "very disappointed" with Elon Musk. pic.twitter.com/aBe85scHPf

— Disclose.tv (@disclosetv) June 5, 2025

🚨 NEW: Trump speaks on Elon coming out against the BBB

“I would have won Pennsylvania regardless of Elon…I’m very disappointed with Elon. He knew this bill better than anyone and he only developed a problem when he found out I would cut the EV mandate…

When he left he said… pic.twitter.com/O0OfkqmOUd

— Autism Capital 🧩 (@AutismCapital) June 5, 2025

but then the owner of x-twitter fonted this…

my lips were usually the trap.
they wanted these lips sliding up and down on their hard pipes in secret.
next was the fact that i was different.
“soft“.
“quiet“.
two things i thought were weaknesses were actually what made their dicks hard.
“i think i can explore my curiosity with him”.
lastly: i wasn’t acting like a hoe because i was comfortable in my innocence.
they sniffed out that i liked other males even if i didn’t know it yet.
that is how it begins:

An assumption wrapped in desire and a fantasy they could never say out loud.

they recognized something in me that they saw in themselves,
but when things started getting out of control…

Disembodied (adj): separated from or existing without the body.

watching “queer” last night,
i realized i was the main character with a twist.
i never financially paid for another male but i did pay emotionally.
lee (played by daniel craig) had me in my feelings at 12 am.

at first,
i thought the movie was weird but as i watched,
i started to fully understand the story…