Is it wrong to say I’ve been really going through it?
between the depression and the anxiety,
i don’t know how i‘ve been making it through.
i woke up today legit crying my ass off.
it has been better than my usual waking up filled with anxiety.
this did start around the time the mercury retrograde reared its ugly head,
but i think i’ve hit the pandemic wall…
i never get the wolf i want.
i always have the pleasure of attracting the ones i want,
but we always have this intense moment until something splits us up.
but they always end up having:
all bark; no bite especially where i want to be bit.
it never fails…
“I’m so sad Jamari…“
as the saying goes:
“If it ain’t one thing…”
has had a tough few months.
we have those moments in life where nothing seems to go right.
it literally is one thing after the other.
we are in a constant washing machine of bs.
there was the car accident that gave her ptsd last year.
the police said it was her fault and it was looking like she would have to pay up.
she has since worked through all of those issues for a positive end.
if you haven’t noticed,
i express myself through art.
you know what i love?
When a song(s) and videos are presented one way,
but there is a whole different meaning behind it.
that makes me so aroused.
you know i love an era.
for the last couple of weeks,
things have been really weird in my life.
i made this video today…
there are certain people who see you as “the threat“.
people have tried to destroy others over jealousy and envy.
you didn’t necessarily do anything to provoke them.
you were just being you and they hated it.
i’ve been labeled “the threat” on countless occasions.
i’ll start out really cool with some folks,
Jamari Fox is a threat
i’ve been on the threat status because:
Males they wanted have shown signs of wanting to smash me stupid
People genuinely took a liking to me
They got intimidated by my talent
all kinds of weirdo shit,
but here i am thinking the person is cool af and i’m cheering them on.
the thing about me…
my writing tends to come from a place of pain.
it’s relatable because many of us struggle with the same things.
being a black gay male isn’t easy in this hateful society.
my creative expression comes from:
for the last couple of weeks…