one of my wolf friends was telling me a few days ago:

“every time i have sex with my girl,
she wants it rough and i leave it (her vixen parts) swollen.
her legs are shaking and she can’t even get up off the bed.”

…and tbh,
it was the sexiest thing i heard in quite some time.
the visual in my head turned me on heavy.
the interesting part is that outside of rough sex…

i saw ^that online that felt like my brain on paper.
i’d like to add on:

The Foxhole.
being social.
rihanna’s social media presence.
the person i stay with.
the person i stay with.
THE PERSON I STAY WITH.
my own space.
my own space.
MY OWN SPACE.

…and i’m sure there are more in the reserves.
everything in my head is talking at once,
and it made me realize something…

getting on me for something and then turning around and doing the exact same thing?

that is one of my biggest pet peeves when to comes to anyone.
where i’m staying currently has been a complete mind fuck.
i had to wonder of i’m in a jordan peele or A24 production and didn’t realize it.
it’s one thing after the next,
to the point where i’ve started to wonder…

is this actually more mentally and emotionally taxing than what i left in new yawk?

the latest was what really made me back TF up…

its quiet without her today.
i hate it.

two things i learned about puppies is they’re like kids.
ya’ll know i don’t want no kids,
but this situation taught me that i’d happily raise a dog.
the last thing i learned:

i refuse to foster an animal ever again.

def not built ford tough for it.
i am an animal person and i get attached quick.
her new family picked her up on saturday and i was DEVASTATED.
it didn’t help that when they put the new collar and leash on her…

i legit cried this morning.
i was so embarrassed.
ugh.

woke up early,
had a good gym session,
and took a long walk to get a haircut.
got the message as i was coming home…

this is the one thing they don’t warn you about with a puppy.

it was saturday night,
around 9pm or later,
and i stepped out right quick for to talk privately on the phone.
i was probably out in the hallway for an hour or so.
i come back in and the puppy to’ my laptop charger to shreds.
^ that was the outcome above.
when i font you…