i watched a netflix documentary called,
“maternal instinct“.
it was about a sociopathic she-hyena named taylor parker.
in a elevator Fohxole pitch of why you should watch,
she murdered her friend and cut her newborn out of her stomach.

she did it to maintain a fantasy she created,
especially a fake pregnancy.
what got me was not just how horrific the crime was,
but it was everyone around her who believed her lies.

how did so many people ignore the red flags?
how did her man keep believing her,
even when things stopped making sense?

it reminded me of jackals who catfish,
but it really reminded me of some of these blatant scamming attentionistos on OF.
there are times i read stories and i’m like:

“HOW…
did you fall for this obvious nonsense?“

someone explained it in a way that gave me an “a-ha” moment…

“jamari…
i know you are upset but you have got to stop letting this take over your emotions.
i’m gonna help you turn this all around…”

that was someone i’ve met here that i word-vomitted to.
they could tell i was up to my wits end with it all.
so they said in font earlier today…

there are some attentionistos that once they get bent for gay for pay,
or they did the bended,
they enter the point of no return.
you can’t turn back once you go through that tunnel…

…but personally,
i think something shifts in males once someone goes through their tunnel.

while some get traumatized for life because they didn’t realize what cums with it,
there are many whose love the feeling of what happened to their g-spots and go nuts.
males can make some good money for a few hours of sex work.
sometimes they get flown out for a weekend,
a week,
or it’s a night at a local hotel.

a good john will advise them on how to clean themselves,
what they are paying for,
and sometimes the logistics of what’s in the NDA.

i believe if you are selling your bawdy,
you should be thinking of two things…

i believe in visualization in manifesting heavy.
meaning,
you should always visualize the life that you desire.
like,
you gotta visualize it that you can feel it.
that also includes the menz we desire as well.
for me,
it’s not so much saying it and affirming 24/7:

seeing it
imagining it
moving on from it

why do you think people’s past tweets before success became a reality?
this was ariana in 2011:

high-key: “7 rings” is a peak manifestation song.

i truly believe they “set it and forget it“.
it’s not crossing the line of obsession,
but dancing around at the line of delulu.
i’ve been wondering tho:

what if you used AI to create a version of yourself where you are living your best life?

a Foxholer sent me a IG of an insta-gay AI couple,
@jaydenandsean:

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this vision came from someone i’m sure wanting “this“.
acting(?) vixen,
skai jackson,
has been making AI creations of herself,
her fantasy manz,
and the life she desires on snapchat…

this movie was a trip.
Foxhole,
watch it now on HULU.
NOW.

we have to be careful what we wish for.
i’ve learned that many times tbh.
i’ve done it with wolves,
people,
and tbh,
transitioning to this place i’m staying at now.

it isn’t always what it’s cracked up to be.
even though it drains TF outta you,
it either isn’t meant for you or meant to challenge you for better.

the pay off is you gain skills that the “easy mode” path didn’t.
i felt that way watching the 2023 movie,
“what you wish for“…

i have a question for you:

are some males actually out of our league?
or is that the story we chose to tell ourselves in fear of rejection?

…until we meet someone who we think is “out of our league”,
and they show us that regardless of what we think we don’t have,
they are attracted to something we do have.
we been in our own bawdies for a long time so we know what works,
doesn’t work,
what we wish we had that would make things work,
and what has become “what we think makes us ugly“.
karaoke said something to me that i had to share with The Foxhole:

“people really need to start telling themselves a new story in their heads.”

i saw this thread on reddit and i wanted to share it on the Foxhole…