a season of ghosting,
or aka season of isolation,
is not the kind where you just need a weekend to recharge.
it’s the kind that sneaks up after a breakup,
a major disappointment,
job loss,
or losing someone you love.
suddenly,
you don’t feel like doing anything or being around anyone.
this season can last days,
weeks,
and sometimes,
it can last for even years.
i accepted that i’ve been in my ghosting era for a while now…

on the last day of february,
which i didn’t realize was the last day,
i randomly made the decision that i wanted a reset.
i was seeing a lot of signs about starting over.
i legit had a notification pop up on my phone:

“Begin again“.

um,
isn’t that weird????????
a lot of shit went down on the last day of last month or leading up to it that week…

This picture is brutal but it is life.
It is the circle of life.

i had a dream about this picture last night and it came with a message.
as you can see,
that picture is a leopard who killed a monkey,
while its child clung to its lifeless body.
it was shot by igor altuna.
what’s interesting is that…

How are you doing?

waits for you to font me how you are doing
i get it.
i totally get it.
we are living in strange times and every day,
we get a fresh headline of a new executive order or some other fuck shit.
you start thinking about your job security,
your future,
your past,
and that pesky question:

“How bad is it going to get?”

it’s making it’s way downtown and its walking fast.
i can font things will be fine but honestly:

I don’t know.
i truly don’t know.

here is the truth in full font.
ready?…

I’m going to use Charlie as an example for this upcoming entry.
Disclaimer: I’m NOT implying that Charlie is down for the Foxhole.
There is no confirmation besides he is STRAIGHT as far as I know.
I still think he is fine AF even though he annoyed me being on that reality show.
I tell/font him that to his face but I digress…

i read a reddit sub a while back where a fox met a fine wolf at the gym,
and the wolf legit started talking to him out of interest,
and the fox was asking himself:

“Why would he even be interested in me?”

…because he felt he wasn’t “just as fine” too.
apparently,
the fox is average in all areas.
so let’s font that the fox goes on autopilot and later on down the road,
they fall into in a relationship because the wolf is genuinely into him…

The insecurities that this Wolf triggered out this Fox would cause him to fuck up this potential relationship.

so it made me think about dating those we think are out our league.
it led me back to a conversation with a friend the other day.
she showed me an IG post of tyler lepley and i asked her…

Own your shit.

i’ve been working hard to own my shit…