
i was trying to sleep and all i heard was barking.
it was 4 am.
chaos agent decided to foster another dog.
it woke me up out of my sleep and i was so tight.
i had to up at 730 am for work.
all the other dogs were quiet in the early morning hours.
the last puppy temperament was so chill.
he was 3 years old.
this new puppy is only 3 months old.
teething and restless.
heavy.
not only that,
i only knew this dog was coming the day before.
i just know i was sleeping but i was so annoyed.
in a rage,
i was gonna text all of my friends…
“if i don’t get approved for this complex,
or i can’t find another spot and i gotta move with this person,
i’m gonna fling myself in front of the train.
i will not be able to do this.”

i woke up with a message talking about walking this dog before work.
must be out of your mind.
God did the thing and it ended up peeing on the wee wee pad.
i come home and they tell me they left the dog roaming around,
but they’re going to the movies.

i get in here and the puppy has already did a number on their shoes.
mine are good tho.
lowkey: now i gotta move all of shit because this teething ass dog is a menace.




Don’t lose hope Jamari. I know that you are going through it, and I’m not going to act like your mental hasn’t been put to the test. But I believe that you will make it through this situation. And I look forward to reading the posts that end with “remember when I was in that crazy situation with the dog and the chaos agent? Thank God for getting me out of that”. You’ll make it over this hill. Just keep taking your leaps and steps towards the goal.