it’s getting to the point i can’t tell an AI male from a real one.
with some,
it’s obvious but others:

one of the Foxholers sent me drop with a youtube video.
he said,
“the AI is going crazy…

this is how he should have been looking down on the bullshit but here we are.

personally,
royce styles is doing the most.
he got ( x peanut ) exposing him over allegedly being a DL opportunist.
the real scandal is shannon sharpe allegedly hunting out muscle tail,
…but royce styles is involved because peanut is on a rampage.
royce claims these are all lies,
there was alleged “grooming” going on,
and he is exposing all.
royce styles went on tasha k to share his side and well…

nothing is worse than when you think you met cool people at work,
and they end up making your work day an absolute nightmare.
i can only imagine what karamo brown dealt with on queer eye,
but if history has taught us:

you gotta be careful with bitchy white gays.
many of them see you as BBC or beneath them.
some will play “oppressed” and flip on that privilege real quick too.

karamo is broke his silence about what happened and why he left…

aww andy!
i would have respected if you kept the tweet up.
posting and deleting like rih’s social media don’t know how to screenshot?

i’d imagine one of his social media saavy nuclear kids would have told him.

so us representative of tennessee,
andy ogles,
could not contain his intrusive thoughts enough.
he went on X to throw salt on the gay parade for pride month.
i don’t recall us asking for his opinion,
nor did we realize he existed.
now he put a target on his back and the hunt for his hidden grindr begins.
they never learn,
do they?
my question to these kinds of straight jackals is always…

one of the last things my mother told me on her deathbed was:

“make sure you and your sister don’t get separated.
i want you both together.”

…and i tried.
if it wasn’t jackals circling her money,
it was relatives coddling her because she was “light skin”.

Foxhole,
it was a challenge.

i often wonder what our lives would have been like if we moved to florida?
we were supposed to go live with our uncle,
but tbh,
his life crashed and burned a few years later.
as my sister got older,
her mental health got worse and worse.
unfortunately,
we don’t have the kind of relationship my mother wanted for us.
she hits me up ever so often with “i’m gonna do better” DMS.
i don’t answer because she isn’t gonna do better.

i’ve been seeing a lot of discourse online about rue,
who is played by zendaya on “euphoria“.

people saying lexi was mean.
people saying her mother should have tried harder.
people saying they wanted a happier ending for rue.

mmm.

until you’ve loved someone struggling with addiction,
or severe mental health issues…

i guess,
when i think about it,
i have learned a lot since i left new yawk.
it made me wonder:

was moving here actually a test?

earlier last week at work,
i could sense my boss wasn’t in the greatest of moods.
that might be a cancer thing where we sense emotions well,
but i believe my senses have been heightened with all i been dealing with.
he snapped at me over something trivial,
but since he owns the business,
that trivial fuck up means a lot to him.
instead of snapping back,
or explaining myself like the young fox used to do when he got in trouble:

apologized for the trivial fuck up
immediately shut the fuck up and let him talk
let him have his time to stabilize their emotions
went back to scrolling the nets when he went back to his office

on friday,
he came up to me and did something i didn’t see coming…