we live in a time that,
unfortunately,
celebrities speaking out does little than next to nothing.
we live in a time that,
unfortunately,
free speech will get you fucked up out here.
we live in a time that,
unfortunately,
when they do say something:

many of our favs are two seconds away from saying some dumb shit on an IG press release.

that is how i feel about p!nk right now.
boyyyyy,
did she ( x annoy me with that shit ).
i was JUST listening to her first album too.
ugh.
i’ve been one to expect a celeb to speak up to make me feel seen,
but i’ve been getting so disappointed with some of those people.
i’ve noticed that anytime some shit is going down:

everyone is expecting beyonce to say something.

the same bey that doesn’t even tell us an album is dropping.
this flew by on my x-twitter timeline and i was likeeeeeeee…

one thing about jackals who don’t like you:

they gonna find a way to talk about you.

i always found it funny that males were “straight”,
but my gay ass was always the topic of their conversations.
i should have really been the meek mill to their dreams and nightmares.

sidebar: you ever wonder how many DL males you could have had because they were interested,
but because you stayed in defensive mode,
you didn’t properly read the signs?

political streaming wolf,
hasan piker,
always got the red hats all hot ‘n’ bothered.
you know its serious when they had him,
in his drawz,
on the big screen of the ’26 dallas republican convention…

here is what she said.
there is what young jamari heard.

yesterday at work,
one of the younger vixens said something to me that threw me off.
something went down; she felt uncomfortable with another male there.
she admitted she felt more comfortable with me because:

“you’re a girl’s girl.”
“you’re one of the girls.”
“you’re girly pop”
“you’re the universal hand sign for gay”

cue spongebob:

it hit a old wound of trauma that a sat in young jamari...

i am a gay black fox who grew up in a mostly female dominated household.

granted,
there were sprinkles of males around,
but it was mostly female.
i can font that looking back at how i grew up…

i watched a netflix documentary called,
“maternal instinct“.
it was about a sociopathic she-hyena named taylor parker.
in a elevator Fohxole pitch of why you should watch,
she murdered her friend and cut her newborn out of her stomach.

she did it to maintain a fantasy she created,
especially a fake pregnancy.
what got me was not just how horrific the crime was,
but it was everyone around her who believed her lies.

how did so many people ignore the red flags?
how did her man keep believing her,
even when things stopped making sense?

it reminded me of jackals who catfish,
but it really reminded me of some of these blatant scamming attentionistos on OF.
there are times i read stories and i’m like:

“HOW…
did you fall for this obvious nonsense?“

someone explained it in a way that gave me an “a-ha” moment…

i been thinking that if everything that has happened these last 3 years,
even if i thought it was so negative,
was actually part of God’s plan?

this time last year of june 2025,
in about a month,
i was gonna come where i am now for a BBQ.
i didn’t want to come but something urged me to go.
when i left here that night to go back to new yawk,
i have on video telling my friend i was gonna live here.

“i don’t know how,
but i’m going to live here.”

and even though this transition wasn’t ‘a walk in the park…