look at the ceiling.
sign onto jack’d.
look through messages.
none worth replying.
go get breakfast.
look through ads.
clean up crib.
clean up insides.
hop on jack’d.
go through profiles.
sign on bgc and a4a.
look through more profiles.
do it some more.
and some more.
go to bed.
is this the life of you?
is your whole world dominated by looking for a wolf/hybrid/or fox?
have you lost control of your priorities?
what do you want to do with your life anyway?
or, are you satisfied being an online socialite?
i started to wonder…
Where is your focus right now?
it seems that there are three types of people in this lifestyle.
ones who are so caught up in trying to find a man,
they can’t function without talking to someone.
then, there are those who are okay with being alone,
but will still jump for the possibility if it arises.
lastly, there are those who just say “fuck you; pay me“.
foxes/wolves/and hybrids have an issue.
one that plagues this society and doesn’t seem to be going anywhere.
i, too, use to suffer from it.
but, after losing my job recently and virtually being hungry for a bigger bank account,
i saw where all my issues laid.
sadly, something that could be so good can also be so fucking bad.
i spent so many years looking for someone who would complete me.
i always thought finding a wolf, it would somehow boost me to be better.
it would make me magically complete all my goals and go after my career.
i was looking for someone to love me, since i didn’t have too much love for myself.
after a healthy dose of self esteem, i said “fuck that”.
then i met him recently…
and i’m semi not putting any effort into it.
he hits me up every day.
he sends me messages to see if i’m okay.
he admitted he speaks to others, but no one stands out like me.
so there should be no issue, right?
i have an issue being broke.
he isn’t exactly the type of “wolf” i would be with either.
his lack of focus was what was my lack of focus.
he just happened to be really attracted to me.
he is the right wolf at the wrong time.
he is patient and i appreciate that.
i am not happy with my current life.
unemployment only lasts but so long.
so i am focused on my career (with whatever wolves find themselves hypnotized by me)
i’m focused on working towards a comfortable life.
i can’t live like this anymore.
i often wondered about those foxes who are so focused on the wrong thing,
life passes them by and they realize it is too late.
it is all good to party, get fucked stupid, and do hoodrat shit with our friends…
but why can’t we do that with bread in our wallets?
i love going to nice restaurants and staying in nice hotels.
i love getting on a plane and going to a whole new state.
i love that new rental car smell.
i love vip seating.
i love mingling with people who can teach me something (so i can teach you something).
i want my own town house.… and be able to afford all the luxuries.
running through the hoods and clubs is not my idea of a good time.
i can’t be “that person” who is broke, but having this warped idea of fun.
begging people to buy me drinks, but can’t afford to pay my rent.
it doesn’t feel right.
sometimes, you gotta take a break and re-evaluate.
but you gotta ask yourself…
Are you ready?
are you ready to be alone?
are you ready to limit time on the social networks?
are you ready to be frustrated trying to find ways to make money?
are you ready to cry because you have nowhere to go?
are you ready to be secretly envious of your instagram friends?
are you ready to be a man and make shit happen?
yeah, so again…
Are you ready?
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