“waddup?” he asked on the other line.
he was fine.
it’s been a long time since i’ve talked to someone i was interested in.
i was attracted to him tho.
we been talking on and off for a few days.
he’s definitely someone i could see myself with long term…
one of my biggest downfalls,
as i’ve shared a couple times,
is i’ve cared too much.
it came from a place of “lack”.
i would look at others,
and then at my own life,
and see i didn’t “fit in”.
it caused me to ask myself and others countless times:
“Am I doing something wrong?”
everyone looked at me like i was living a good life.
i was too busy investing energy in randoms and strangers to see it…
Continue reading ““Loss” and “Lack” Makes You Care Too Much”
i want you to take a look around you real quick.
i was saying your room is a little messy.
can we clean this later?
no but seriously…
i want you to look at everything happening in your life at this very moment.
are you attracting everything you have desired?
or do you feel like you are at a standstill with life?
well you can come from any walk of life and still have the mindset of:
one word that makes you feel like you can’t get what you want.
well you aren’t alone.
i have a lack based mentality and i’ll tell you how…
Continue reading “Your “Lack” is F*ckin’ Your Life Completely Up”
“so i take it we not fuckin?”
that was the text i got at 7am this morning.
i ignored it.
that makes about 7 random texts i have ignored.
he still don’t know why either.
he should ask whoever texted me asking who i was…
look at the ceiling.
sign onto jack’d.
look through messages.
none worth replying.
go get breakfast.
look through ads.
clean up crib.
clean up insides.
hop on jack’d.
go through profiles.
sign on bgc and a4a.
look through more profiles.
do it some more.
and some more.
go to bed.
is this the life of you?
is your whole world dominated by looking for a wolf/hybrid/or fox?
have you lost control of your priorities?
what do you want to do with your life anyway?
or, are you satisfied being an online socialite?
i started to wonder…