We all have crushes.
I will admit, I had a BIG crush on Devin Thomas.
Lately, I have been crushed.
He sort of disappointed me.
I don’t know why, but I am sorta over it.
He seems to NOT be the Wolf I imagined he would be.
I wouldn’t turn down a fuck fest weekend with him,
but after that eyebrow incident and his crazy rant on Twitter,
something sorta turned me off.
Downgraded from That’s Daddy Right There to Dick Dealer Status.
See how I did that there?
You turned out to be the best thing I never had…
And I’m always gonna be THE BEST THING YOU NEVER HAD.
That new Beyonce song came JUST in time for me.
This song has helped me become a much stronger Fox these days.
We all have seen someone who captured our attention.
We build that person up in our heads based on their looks.
We think that their since they look good, they would end up treating us good.
We imagine what it would be like to meet them, be with them, and what the sex would be like.
We create this imaginary life in our heads and run with it.
It is normal and natural.
But honestly, the fantasy is better than the reality.
Some things are just meant to lie to us in our imaginations.
I knew a Wolf that I would crush on HEAVY.
He rolled in my crew of straight Wolves that I use to run with.
I didn’t initially think anything of him when I first met him, but a Hyena I was cool with brought it to my attention.
That is when I really looked at him and things he did to me…and I saw something new.
He was “straight”, but he was one of them that I figured got down by the way he treated me.
I was all about this dude and I will admit, he had my nose wide open.
He called and I was there to do anything for him.
Serious Ashanti type of foolish.
I never looked at the fact that he:
Was fucking a different Vixen every week
Went to jail a couple of times
Heard from the grapevine he had a super small dick
Had no backbone and could easily be walked over
A severe weed issue that all his money went too
He ended up getting some chick pregnant (may not be the father) and basically is a loser now.
He still looks good but, nah I’m good.
But, in my mind before, we would have had the perfect relationship.
I never considered that this other human had issues beyond what I was imagining.
I looked past all those issues because I wanted him.
I was imagining how I would want to be treated because it was my FANTASY.
I have had crushes on Wolves who later I found out:
Beat Vixens into bloody pulps
Got diseases from being fast asses
Low key drug addicts
Color struck/only had a type
Turned out to be Foxes
Homophobic/Fucked Foxes and beat them up after
or the main issues, 100% STRAIGHT
… but for whatever reason, I felt I could change them into my perfect match.
BOY I AM GLAD I WOKE THE FUCK UP.
Putting anyone on a pedestal is never a good idea.
It clouds your judgement in realizing this is just another human being with flaws.
We get intimidated when it comes time to confront the fears we have placed “them” in when they come around.
The reason you are scared of them is because you sort of “worship” them.
No one is to be worshiped expect the one above and YOU.
Take all that away from them and you will see that person in a new light.
Best believe, you will see the “real” them and it may just turn you off.
Just some hard dick truthfully speaking…
But we spend so many times Sittin’ Up In Our Rooms Brandy style
and we never say “FUCK THAT” and wonder…