C.R.U.S.H.E.D: The Untold Stories

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We all have crushes.

I will admit, I had a BIG crush on Devin Thomas.
Lately, I have been crushed.
He sort of disappointed me.
I don’t know why, but I am sorta over it.
He seems to NOT be the Wolf I imagined he would be.
I wouldn’t turn down a fuck fest weekend with him,
but after that eyebrow incident and his crazy rant on Twitter,
something sorta turned me off.


Downgraded from That’s Daddy Right There to Dick Dealer Status.

See how I did that there?

You turned out to be the best thing I never had…
And I’m always gonna be THE BEST THING YOU NEVER HAD.

That new Beyonce song came JUST in time for me.
This song has helped me become a much stronger Fox these days.
Powerful words.

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We all have seen someone who captured our attention.
We build that person up in our heads based on their looks.
We think that their since they look good, they would end up treating us good.
We imagine what it would be like to meet them, be with them, and what the sex would be like.
We create this imaginary life in our heads and run with it.

It is normal and natural.
But honestly, the fantasy is better than the reality.
Some things are just meant to lie to us in our imaginations.

I knew a Wolf that I would crush on HEAVY.

Tanned skin
Tall
Athletic Toned
Part-time Model

He rolled in my crew of straight Wolves that I use to run with.
I didn’t initially think anything of him when I first met him, but a Hyena I was cool with brought it to my attention.
That is when I really looked at him and things he did to me…and I saw something new.
He was “straight”, but he was one of them that I figured got down by the way he treated me.
I was all about this dude and I will admit, he had my nose wide open.
He called and I was there to do anything for him.
Serious Ashanti type of foolish.
I never looked at the fact that he:

Was fucking a different Vixen every week
Went to jail a couple of times
Got herpes
Heard from the grapevine he had a super small dick
Had no backbone and could easily be walked over
A severe weed issue that all his money went too

He ended up getting some chick pregnant (may not be the father) and basically is a loser now.
He still looks good but, nah I’m good.
But, in my mind before, we would have had the perfect relationship.
I never considered that this other human had issues beyond what I was imagining.
I looked past all those issues because I wanted him.
I was imagining how I would want to be treated because it was my FANTASY.

I have had crushes on Wolves who later I found out:

Beat Vixens into bloody pulps
Broke
Got diseases from being fast asses
Low key drug addicts
Color struck/only had a type
Turned out to be Foxes
Homophobic/Fucked Foxes and beat them up after
or the main issues, 100% STRAIGHT

… but for whatever reason, I felt I could change them into my perfect match.

BOY I AM GLAD I WOKE THE FUCK UP.

Putting anyone on a pedestal is never a good idea.
It clouds your judgement in realizing this is just another human being with flaws.
We get intimidated when it comes time to confront the fears we have placed “them” in when they come around.
Yup.
The reason you are scared of them is because you sort of “worship” them.
No one is to be worshiped expect the one above and YOU.
Take all that away from them and you will see that person in a new light.
Best believe, you will see the “real” them and it may just turn you off.
Just some hard dick truthfully speaking…

But we spend so many times Sittin’ Up In Our Rooms Brandy style
and we never say “FUCK THAT” and wonder…

Who is crushin’ and putting US on a pedestal?

Author: jamari fox

the fox invited to the blogging table.

39 thoughts on “C.R.U.S.H.E.D: The Untold Stories”

  1. First off: I love that new Beyonce song, especially the lyric “Thank God I found the “good” in goodbye.” Powerful. I wish that song came out in 2006 when I was in the middle of a bad relationship.

    I suspect I’m in the minority, but I was never a big fan of ole boy. My man is Darren Sharper of the Saints. Handsome, sexy and knows how to act. Cakes ain’t bad, either. l live in New Orleans now and linkn up with that is a goal. a lofty one, but a goal nonetheless.

  2. tell me about the crushes jamari cause all mine have almost been the same except i also smoked weed lol. but i figured that once i see the real wolf i can judge by then.

    and sam im from the N.O but that bitch katrina displaced me so i know what u mean about darren just he old as hell but still a banger

    and as you know jamari i have so many sports crushes that i lost count but my all time for now is Ray Edwards. he is so cute and the build i like, i dream one day he just comes to my rescue and saves me

    1. look at that! 504 boys on the site! Sam and OMG what wards y’all from? 3rd right chere ya heard me!!!!! Sam go and enjoy a hand grenade on bourbon. Go before sunset. Too many shootings in the quarter!

      1. Im from NYC originally fellas, butI live in the NO now. Actually, Metairie. NO cops are too damn crazy and corrupt. But they fine as hell tho! No offense to ATL, or NYC..But N’awlins has the finest brothas on earth!!

  3. Yea; the cover of a book and all the hype capture ones attention but, its the story that’s gona hold my attention on rather or not I should open myself to it. By the time u get to chptr. 4 the story goes down hill. Other peoples experiences from being tied into someone straight, gay or somewhere inbetween, from a crush to a relationshp support my hightened sexual lust due to abstination and the need for companionship support my discipline; I not in a hurry trying to get something that might bite me in the butt later down the road and I don’t want no junk standing in the way of me and my choosen one. I try not to set myself up by the web of intense attractions that may disappointment me.Always on guard! especially when I think I’m dealg with a bisexual man or any man… I wanna be safe not sorry. The the Head Fox and other foxes of this blog give me skills…that keep me STRONG!

  4. sam :
    Im from NYC originally fellas, butI live in the NO now. Actually, Metairie. NO cops are too damn crazy and corrupt. But they fine as hell tho! No offense to ATL, or NYC..But N’awlins has the finest brothas on earth!!

    Yes we do SAM! OMG you best school em on how we rolled down here in the Big Easy! Apparently we got the biggest thingamabobs down here too! OMG you played “project ball?”

    1. 0uI played handball and street football growing up in Brooklyn. That’s the only “ghetto”ball I’ve played.

      I love New Orleans. Great town, fine brothas, great food. (gained 30lbs since moving here in November but I’ve since lost it, Thank God). Already dicked down my fair share of Wolves.

      OMG007 & Bestbook: Any recommendations for a dl club? Been hitting up the Phoenix on Elysian Fields most fridays and saturdays. But that’s getting old.

      1. Damn Sam! I need to get on your level. I haven’t dicked a wolf yet. But they have to be good looking and muscular and protective of my virgin walls. Lol! I rarely went out because of school, and I don’t want to get shot, but when I did I went to Masquerade at Harrah’s on Thursday’s. It’s a straight club but I’m pretty sure you could find a wolf in there. My gaydar is off is hell. I’m actually still trying to understand what is exactly is an “eye fuck.” Anyways another place I heard of is “Viola” (pronounced wa-la) Friday and Saturday nights are pretty cool. Mostly rap and r&b music are played there. One other place is across the river off of Harvey, dont quote but i think its called “club new orleans.” I’ve never been but I heard it’s great! Most clubs that I’ve been too are straight but you I’m pretty sure you could find a wolf in one of em, espeically around the holidays or special events in the city.

        Question Sam, if you please, were the wolves sexy and was the “session” off da chain? Where did you find em?

  5. I found them on grindr and Adam. I thought they were foxes. A few of them I found at the Phoenix. They claim to be wolves but their legs were in the aiecquicker than you can say opensesame! Lol

  6. crushes, put one in the lead role ,and they do not let god or the universe take the wheel, never let your mind take over your life, and never try to take gods place in creating your love god knows all and he knows what we do not, and he will reveal all in his season not ours, love and blessings to all, share love and receive so much more

  7. Oh shit we have some Louisiana dudes here?!

    *turns on bounce music & pulls out camera phone*

    Who’s gonna bust it open first? Don’t be shy! lol

    1. oh lawd..I guess someone just had to let it loose. And get cut like you ugly. lmao! y’all are a mess.

      1. Come on Best let’s see what you got…

        “He took me to his cribbbb, the place where his mama liveee. Then he took me to his rooommm and said bend ova lemme give u summm”

        Lololol!

  8. JAY :
    Come on Best let’s see what you got…
    “He took me to his cribbbb, the place where his mama liveee. Then he took me to his rooommm and said bend ova lemme give u summm”
    Lololol!

    lol! check this out.

    The best part of wakin up is Jay in yo guts. Like you “ugaly”
    The best part of wakin up is Jay in yo guts. Like you “ugaly”
    Say ow…you hurtin him. Say ow…you hurtin him. Bout to make Jay pass out!

    1. Lmao! N.O. dudes can make that ass bounce better than most females. Me in New Orleans for Mardi Gras is a recipe for whorish behavior.

      My favorite bounce song is “Hot Steamy Relations” lol

      1. I guess that what makes me upset with the dudes down here is because of that. I’m like my gosh even I could bounce my ass that I wouldn’t want to. Not in public…now maybe the bedroom I may have to take a class or two to bounce like the pros.

        Yes Mardi is damn good recipe for whorish behavior. I wish just one time I could ride one. Just once. Speakin of Mardi Gras and Essence and I had the hardest time trying to figure out where the wolves were. Mardi Gras was harder because I was on the float throwin beads, but Essence I saw some but my gaydar must have been jacked up.

        Bounce song, “hot steamy relations.” You bringin back memories of my cub days at the park sippin on a strawberry snoball with condensed milk.

      2. That N.O. accent is like.. ‘ugh’ to me lol. Not my thing.

        But ya’ll playin. Sissy Nobby has all the jams lol! Magnolia Shorty’s “That’s My Juvie” is a classic.

  9. Lol I see those dudes in my peripheral vision in public, but I’d rather a dude do it in private..

    Yea there’s too many people at mardi gras to get a good read on dudes. I usually zoom in on groups with 3 or more dudes together and none of them are straying far away from each other to mess with females. Foxes tend to stick closer together like that.

    I know a LOT of gay dudes went to the Essence festival though.

  10. Shut the front doe. Fa real a missed opportunity to try to get some pipe. Wait. Were they sexy and reserved in public?

  11. Lol they were all bottoms to my knowledge. They were good looking though. I don’t know how they act in public though.

    I was supposed to go but I decided against when my mom said she’d be there..lol

  12. Damn on both parts! I needed a wolf to just take me out of Harrah’s and to a hotel room. Aw well. There’s next year!

  13. UrSoVain :
    That N.O. accent is like.. ‘ugh’ to me lol. Not my thing.
    But ya’ll playin. Sissy Nobby has all the jams lol! Magnolia Shorty’s “That’s My Juvie” is a classic.

    Naw baby it’s classic! I don’t have one because I had to lose it but apparently it comes out when I’m pissed or talk way too fast.

  14. UrSoVain :
    That N.O. accent is like.. ‘ugh’ to me lol. Not my thing.
    But ya’ll playin. Sissy Nobby has all the jams lol! Magnolia Shorty’s “That’s My Juvie” is a classic.

    Vain you’re 5’5 right?

    The short ones always pop it the hardest. Shake something for the camera phone please.

    Thanks in adavce,
    Mgmt

    1. I can shake but I cannot for the life of me figure out the technique to bounce like that! I know it involves your knees in motion with your hips. Plus the placement of your jeans. But i can’t figure it out (i’ve watched many-a-youtube videos trying to figure it out). I need lessons lol.

      Twerkin it like “Twerk Team” is a lot easier lol.

  15. Wow you can twerk it like the girls on the twerk team?

    I can be in ATL in 6 hrs, I need proof live in HD, preferrably in some colorful AE trunks. Lmao

    1. I’m definitely not on their level but i when i dance at clubs i do get attention lol. Lol @ AE trunks, those are so like…pedestrian… butch queen taking pic’s in the bathroom mirror tryin to be cute. Definitively not an owner of a pair of those. You’d be surprised at how much energy dancing like that takes out of you lol

      (Side note: No matter how ugly a guy is, if he comes up behind me, he’ll get a dance. I think its rude when people catch an attitude when a boy tries to dance with them.)

  16. Lmao those are popular at the store I work at. All kinds of dudes buy like 5 or 6 pairs. But fine we’ll get you a pair of black Armani trunks deal?

    I’ve twerked on a few girls though. “Shake That Money” is my theme song.

    Ugly dudes may get a dance but you’ll probably be giving your friends the signal to pull you away just like females do. Lol

  17. JAY :
    Lmao those are popular at the store I work at. All kinds of dudes buy like 5 or 6 pairs. But fine we’ll get you a pair of black Armani trunks deal?
    I’ve twerked on a few girls though. “Shake That Money” is my theme song.
    Ugly dudes may get a dance but you’ll probably be giving your friends the signal to pull you away just like females do. Lol

    No A&E for me lol. Strangly, I do have those black Armani trunks with the symbol in front (get out of my drawer!) But the fit in the back i can tell what for those of the flat-back variety.

    Again, you’re playing! “Bring it Back” by Travis Porter is the official club anthem. It used to be “No Hands” before. Its all about that “oooOOOhhh” lol

    Yes!! The signal is ONE LOOK …0_0!!… that says: ::(look at me!!) Is he cute? No? Lets go to the bathroom!::

    1. I only really wear under armour black trunks. The material is better and it doesn’t ride up. I only dig colorful underwear on other dudes.

      They play a lot of local hood songs where I’m at. No more Travis Porter here.

      I’ve never seen two dudes dance together though. That would be interesting..lol

      1. Riding up is a real problem for me. Certain things look cute when you take em out the pack or wear em for a second but after a little bit of walking they start to bind around the thighs and i contemplate if it’s worth going up to a medium (btw: never!).

        No, Travis Porter? Like at all? That sounds tragic place to live. Unfortunate. Two guys dancing together can go lots of ways. When its two masculine wolves they’re usually facing either and grinding the front of their pants. Sometimes it can look awkward cuz they usually aren’t keeping rhythm. Other times it just pisses foxes off like “why are you dancing with together?! Are the tops all with each other and that’s why its so hard to find a man?! Whats going on?!” Two foxes dancing together is just you and your good girlfriend messing around. When its a fox and wolf its similar to the way straight boys dance with fysh although they tend to get a lot closer and slide their lips across the backs of necks (cuz there’s no indian remy in the way). Had a guy lick the inside of my ear once…i played it cool and didn’t get angry. But i never knew why boys know to do that? Putting your lips or tongue on ears is a huge turn on.

  18. This post is very true, I mean I tend to do this when I see a wolf I think is drop dead goregous and intelligent but I forget all the other stuff that I use to protect myself and usually like in Beyonce’s song I see the real them before I make a complete and total fool of myself. I dont put them on a pedestal ever, becuase I know that my worth far exceeds there but I am weak to their words..

  19. They used to play Travis Porter but now they just play a lot of Texas Music. Have you heard “Lil Dip” or “Hammer”?

    Wow tops dance together? Dudes sliding their lips across other dude’s necks. I feel like I have to see that. Lol

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