one of the coldest places on earth.
the lowest temperature recorded was -133.6 degrees.
you couldn’t survive in that weather with 1,000 northface coats.
one of the coldest temperatures you could feel is being on the outside.
that place where you want to feel included with your peers,
but you feel like you don’t receive the same love that others get.
that place can feel colder than ice.
i was watching i was watching issa rae’s stories today…
she had her annual #yachtshit party over the weekend.
the invites were everything from friends,
and even a few a/b list celebs.
Bitch, Issa is out here living her BEST life, y’all hear me?! pic.twitter.com/29JM3Kghoh
— Aphrodite In A Nightie (@M0NlE) September 16, 2018
um the males on that boat>>>>
as i watched,
i felt sort of “less than” in my own forest.
they all looked so happy as they danced and had fun.
it’s like they are part of a tribe.
a tribe that i wished that i could belong in.
i’ve never had that.
now don’t get me wrong,
but i’m happy for all that issa has accomplished.
she deserves this.
i can see how social media can make you feel out in the cold tho.
if we aren’t living that life,
one of consistent highlight reels,
we are basically nothing.
you can accomplish little wins in your own lives,
but it doesn’t matter if you feel out in the cold.
i’ve always felt sort of out in cold tbh.
jamari fox has never really “fit in” anywhere.
the times i did were all horrible.
i’m the one who usually meets that amazing person.
we get to know each other and have fun as a two-some.
when they introduce me to their tribe,
i’m usually welcomed,
but i can clearly feel that i don’t fit in that circle.
Maybe I’m the “solo act” with cool supporting characters?
is that the truth i can’t accept?
i keep a small circle of friends who all don’t know each other.
not only that,
i know a ton of vixens.
i don’t know any males like i did with star fox.
no one has come close to being him.
this is the flip side to social media.
it’s like one big ass high school.
it’s the only place where the popular kids,
jocks aka baller wolves,
and the government intermingle.
if you are talented,
but feel like no one gives af about you,
it can feel like a slow death.
you just want to feel appreciated and welcomed with open arms.
get invites and just feel apart of something.
is that wrong?
for something that provides us with likes from strangers,
and even an abundance of comments to gas you up…
Why can it make us feel so isolated and alone?
the real question is:
How do we stop?