I HAVE STOPPED JACKING OFF…
yup, you read right.
jamari fox hasn’t choked his chicken, manhandled his meat, or dribbled his basketballs in 2 days.
an accomplishment if i do say so myself.
i’m trying something new.
something that has me feeling like a hungry werewolf locked up in a cage.
i have this new found energy that has me on a total high.
in this lifestyle,
we are either gigantic hoes or big time meat beaters.
some of us don’t want to have 20 dicks in and out of us,
so we wake up and look at about 20 dicks going in and out of someone else.
but if too much sex with random strangers is bad for us,
is too much jacking off worst?
some of us get caught up in fucking ourselves,
that we dismiss trying to get fucked/fuck someone else.
do we become addicted to that safe feeling that we forget to get someone to touch us?
i started to wonder…
Are you fucking yourself by fucking yourself?
now i’m not becoming some monk or a goody too shoes.
i am still a low down freak behind closed doors of my nasty mind.
but i was jacking WAY too much.
i did it 8 times in one day.
pretty good day.
i wanted to try not jacking for a week.
if i can maanage without exploding,
i’ll keep going.
the reason i stopped is because someone mentioned “sexual energy” to me.
as usual, i went on google and did some research.
of course, the links started pouring in.
there were sites you had to pay for,
but there was one site that was free and gave me a good read.
sexual energy is that energy you have that gives you power.
it can almost be compared to gas.
you ever been so horny that you had this energy radiate off you?
you felt it especially between your navel and the shaft of your dick.
well, that’s sexual energy.
once you jack, you lose it.
but when you have sex,
it gets stronger.
when you get some dick/ass/pussy,
you release endorphins which make you feel good.
it makes you glow and it attracts other people to you.
again, when you start fucking…
other people want to fuck you.
but when you jack off,
you release dopamine,
which gives you the same rush,
but then makes you tired and lazy.
i noticed after i jacked off,
i was tired and lazy.
i didn’t even want to think of another wolf.
i would lay around and do nothing all day.
feeling satisfied off the fact i came all over my abs.
now that i stopped,
i feel different.
i’m waking up early and actually getting shit done.
anytime i think about sex,
my body starts to feel extremely sensitive.
i started just watching porn and i like that feeling i get.
that feeling of being insanely horny.
that same energy i feel inside me,
i channel it to doing some constructive.
i actually want to go and meet a wolf so he can beat the brakes off my shit.
i also read that some of the most influential people in the world go off their sexual energy.
they are probably fucking like crazy,
but they are going off that feeling of the after-fuck.
nothing is a better feeling than getting some dick/pussy/ass.
i started to wonder,
with the rise of STDS and other diseases,
is it that easy?
do we find comfort in jackin’ off because we don’t want to catch anything?
unless our hand is radioactive that is…
for a fox like me who isn’t out there,
not on the online sites or the clubs,
will it force me to now look for pipe?
i really want to get my brains fucked out on a regular,
with a steady wolf i can explore my freak level with,
but i’m really not into all the extra that comes with trying to get fucked.
not trying to be on a first name basis with my pharmacist.
so, what am i to do?
be the celibate ball of energy who isn’t getting any?
or keep on waiting until he comes along?
i’m sure by that time,
i’ll be the best sex he ever had because i will unleash all this pent up fury.
i had to ask…
Is it really easy to stop jackin’ off?
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