i’ve learned that if you just detach and move on,
you’ll find your answers eventually.
i had a dream that i had a convo with a friend i fell out with recently.
we haven’t spoken since summer.
i told them in the dream how much they hurt me by what they did.
i woke up and went about my day.
why that night…
everyone in this life has different experiences.
some of us are out and dealt with every male under the sun.
others are dl and its mostly sexual.
then there is the in-between who are waiting for “mister right” instead of “right now”.
we have all met various males who will break their rules for us.
The “I will only let you TOP me”
The “I will only be on the BOTTOM for you”
i was having a chat with a foxholer about a certain type of male in the life tho.
the one who will only deal with one male and that’s YOU…
this is probably gonna be the most vulgar thing i’ve ever footed.
I won’t be satisfied until I drain his balls
you ever been attracted to someone so intense,
you could literally feel them?
its not a crush.
a crush is infatuation with someone you don’t know.
this intense energy with someone you do know,
and you know something more is there…
something is off.
i don’t know if you feel it,
but the energy has been pretty weird these last few days.
it seems like everyone i know is dealing with something…
this is probably going to be a controversial statement,
but i’m gonna font it anyway.
i think that some folks out here need to…
Stop attaching their emotions to others
…especially the gay community.
all that energy only creates more energy for the other person.
so you’re actually doing a disservice.
i’ve been noticing this with the whole kevin hart situation…
my main goal is to find the happiness i had a few week’s ago.
i was in such a good place.
i was in this state of bliss that i couldn’t explain.
when i woke up in the morning,
i had tons of energy.
it was like…
i was having great sex with someone i’m sexually attracted to.
i was horny about everything.
i was finally in a good place.
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