you ever notice in the 90s black movies,
the hot wolf always falls for a bonafide main character bitch?
sanaa lathan.
jada pinkett.
gabrielle union.
they always played some straight up bitches in those movies.
the main character was always on some,
“i like you but you gonna have your shit all the way together to deal with me”?

i’ve been stewing on a video i saw a few days ago.
it was a fed up vixen venting about how black males are hard to love.
this is the video here via “the neighborhood talk“:

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i can sit up here,
fonting about how “ain’t shit” many black males are…

but ima keep it 110%…

i like to believe that some wolves i met liked the IDEA of me,
but are terrified of the emotions they feel because of me.
meaning:

they come in my life,
become hooked off my energy and vibe,
sexually attracted to me,
but still wanted to make sure i knew they liked vixens.

…yet,
when they dropped by mask,
they were a whole different person with me.
its like you get the boyfriend without the title.
i do believe that is why many of our ends felt like “break ups”.
i think many gay males have experienced this with DL and bi males.

society has taught them they need to be with vixens,
but they have a special closeness with other males.
they still treat vixens like shit,
but will do almost anything for another male.

if you happened to be a gay male they got close to,
they’ll do everything BUT claim.
so everyone is riled up over what this bi male said today.
@theycallmehits said he is only sexually attracted to other males…

i thinkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk i’m over it.
i dunno,
but i’m just over it.
it was weird how fast i snapped out of it to.

sidebar: i really think living with that demon i stayed with changed me.

one minute,
i was so excited about him looking in my direction again.
i couldn’t wait to get on The Foxhole and font about it,
but then i did something after feeling a touch of “perfectionism” come over me…

he came back.
i was waking up last saturday morning,
and i decided to check my story views,
and my first thought when i saw his @ :

“wait,
am i still sleeping?”

he watched every single one of my stories too.
when i font i JUMPED out of bed.
after all these years,
he was all up in my stories.
the wild part is…

you know what my biggest issue is with DL or curious wolves?
since everything is on their time,
you’re always catering to them to make “the move”.

that could happen tomorrow.
that could happen six months from now.
that could happen never.

all that back and forth is trash and honestly…

a wolf slid me his number yesterday.
i had spoken to him on the phone at work and he sounded cute.
like,
really cute.
usually,
that is not the case with some males on the phone.
anyway,
the part that got me was when he said…