You’re a prized possession, not everybody’s worthy.
I am a huge fan of Jill Scott.
She is the definition of a great talent, in my book.
Something about her voice and her words inspire me
to be greater and find love of myself and of someone else.
I bought her new album today,
Hidden Beach presents: The Original Jill Scott: from the vault vol. 1,
and she had a song that made me throw it on repeat on a few times.
If you do not have the album, I suggest you make it part of your musical collection.
“Wake up baby… wake up…”
It made me have to be completely honest with my readers and myself.
I have a crush on someone who don’t want me!
I finally admitted that out loud.
I love giving advice and helping people when I can.
I can’t pretend to be perfect, when I am also struggling with my own issues.
Not like I wouldn’t share them with you guys anyway…
So here goes…
I have a crush on my co-worker that I let get out of hand.
I am now starting to see what he doesn’t want me and I need to wake up.
Or, maybe he does and I being blind to the signs he throws?
The excuses I made to myself, “He maybe insecure about this” or “He’ll show a sign one day“.
He (or I) made me buy the full package of Wolf baiting, but he hasn’t done anything to take my bait.
A Fox does not deserve to be only spoken to when no one is around.
A Fox did not deserve him seeing me walking with a female
Vixen co-worker and speed walking away Friday.
But, when he saw me alone later, he wanted to be smiling all in my face.
A Fox does not deserve to be disturbed from doing my own groove to hear him say,
while no one is around,
and we ain’t even cool like that.
I also do not deserve to not even acknowledged when others are around.
It was like he thinks I will out him by my presence… and we haven’t fucked.
Either way, I need to wake THE FUCK up.
If he wanted me, he would have approached.
If he was feeling me, he would have said something than just “Wassup” in passing.
He is the D/L epitome I cannot stand and I got suckered into that trap.
I am sure if I was ultra feminine, I would have been his fuck boy toy at work.
But would that have been a good thing?
So when Jill Scott sung those words about waking up and he doesn’t care about you,
I finally woke up and saw the light today thru song.
So many of my Foxes dealing with this issue.
Crushing on a Wolf who is “straight” and taking you through the up and down stream.
You wait patiently for him to finally say “fuck it” and get some of that good shit.
But, will he ever jump? and will you ever experience that good shit?
And really, will he be the fantasy you created in your head?
Truthfully if he is treating you like this now,
imagine what will happen when he puts that voodoo dick spell on you a few times.
Have you acting a plum fool.
So if I’m waking up, so are you.
Unless he is making a solid effort to get at you, he is a:
Thanks for allowing me to be honest.