Sometimes I wonder:
Why am I doing this?
Why am I writing this blog?
Where am I trying to go?
Am I wasting my time?
I write to put an effect people.
Whether it is good or bad,
I like to share what goes on in my mind.
I read these other blogs and some truly disgust me.
I’ll talk about this one I read JUST the other day on another date and time.
I want to be some kind of inspiration.
I want my legacy as Jamari Fox to put a dent in the blog-sphere.
I know there are people like me who think and feel the same way I do.
Even though I am anonymous,
I take you inside me.
[But sometimes it gets really hard.]
Will I meet the baller of my dreams?
Will I finally find that Wolf that is for me?
Will there be Chapter 2, 3, 4, or 5 of “Inside Jamari Fox”?
Will I fit comfortably into my career?
You know… that kind of stuff…
That is the scary thing about the future.
You just do not know and it makes you scared.
Scared to even take a risk because you do not want to feel like you are wasting your time.
… but when I open my emails,
and see messages from Foxes and Wolves that I have inspired,
letting me know that they feel me and I have effected them,
that makes me keep going.
I know I cannot give up because I have come too far down the road to turn back.
So I hope as I go through my different phases,
from whore to male Oprah to questioning existence,
that you learn something from me and I at least touch that place in your heart….or your dick (what?)
We gon’ make it.