when you have to say “goodbye” to a friend,
one who has had your back for a very long time,
it can be one of the hardest things to do.
like any relationship,
you both may start not seeing eye to eye.
little things they do start to piss you off.
it happens and it is normal.
some friendships end because the loyalty is gone.
your boyfriend becomes a target.
they listen to jealous or envious voices.
ask any celeb about all their broken relationships.
sometimes a time out is necessary,
but it should only last a little while.
star fox and i tho…
we talked last weekend after a good four months…
star fox moved to atl last summer with the idea to start a new career.
i supported him on his big move.
i was often his biggest and only cheerleader.
sadly he got down there and ended up meeting the wrong company.
he met a couple of hybrids and foxes who were also pursuing the same career.
they all turned out to be the cool.
not like me.
he decided after a while that it would be a good idea to move in with them.
during this time,
i would try to call to see how he was doing.
most calls were ignored.
texts would be short.
when we did speak on the phone,
for like 3-4 minutes,
you could hear them being rude in the background.
we were slowly drifting apart.
i was tired of calling and texting to nothing.
i did what was best: separate.
the day before my site went down,
i was on the way to the barber shop and he called me.
he called to apologize and tell me what i already figured.
they had turned on him.
he was become successful in his career and they got jealous.
these same supposed friends he would always talk about turned into foes.
he was forced out into the streets.
luckily someone he was working with allowed him to move in.
i REALLY wanted to say i told you so.
i listened to the story,
talked about why we hated them,
and kept the convo moving along a usual.
when my site went down,
he helped me so much.
even during that sunday i wanted to give up,
when wordpress was not replying back to me,
he helped me remember why we have been best friends for so long.
i started to think about friends.
unlike someone we meet to date,
friends are pretty much stuck with us.
they become our family.
they pick up us when we fall,
comfort us when we hurt,
and yell at us when we fuck up.
we tell them our secrets,
without any hesitation,
because we know they will keep them.
these days it is hard to find people like that.
i see so many people with revolving door friendships.
friends of seasons; not for lifetimes.
i had to ask,
when you look in your contact list…