the world is filled with perfect strangers.
we are also one of those strangers.
we all have to interact with each other and play nice.
but what bout those who you see that make you feel a certain way?
you know what i’m talking about.
don’t act stupid now.
have you ever felt a certain way about someone who you felt you “loved“?
something inside felt like it plugged yourself into them.
daily as you interacted,
your feelings started to grow for this person.
could be the best friend,
or the “straight friend”.
one day, you just knew you would get that.
every scenario felt like a scene from a 90s black movie.
how you tryna get your groove back?
is this crazy?
or, is this just the everyday life of us…
..connecting with these walking blocks of “blood, bones, and feelings“?
i started to wonder…
Can you fall for someone you barely know?
let me tell it,
i feel like i have fallen in love with particular wolves i have met along the way.
now, i don’t fall for every wolf.
i have met some total straight wolves who i knew and it was whatever.
but, i have met some that i felt that instant connect too.
and i know when i like someone.
i put on a poker face which can make me look standoffish.
the face gets blank and i don’t express emotions because i don’t want to be “caught“.
but i be dying to look like a school boy who got a crush on his teacher!
those antics are what have me looking “straight“.
i often wondered if it was loneliness?
or, it’s something about that person that we “just know”?
you know that thing they call “gaydar”?
that thing that connects our spirits.
not everything is obvious.
i wish it was.
the way a wolf who is infatuated with a vixen.
a cheat sheet.
sometimes the best love stories are because two spirits were brought together.
god, that sounds corny.
i wrote that?
i always believed it as true.
we do all this random “loving“,
but we never stop to think about the people who have fallen in love with us.
the ones who sneak a peek as we turn our backs.
or, how about those who love the way we smile?
the ones who do the same shit we do when we like someone hard?
naw, we never stop to think about that.
we just think that we are “unlovable” in some way because we are alone.
we aren’t use to that.
we just real selfish in our own feelings to detach and see someone else who is in theirs.
very “easier said that done“.
trust me, i’m still researching.
I started to wonder about falling for someone who is a question mark.
is it really possible to feel that “L” word for someone we don’t know?
or, do we need to really know someone beforehand?
how is love even created?
it’s usually created by constant walks around the dickmatized bush.
but for me,
it’s the way someone looks in my eyes for way too long.
i don’t fall in love with bodies and penis.
i fall in love with that “something that just ain’t right“.
that feeling that comes when i meet someone and their features suddenly soften.
they look at me like i’m the only muthafucka in the room.
that feeling that i often question because it happens so quick…
…but i felt it.
Can you love a perfect stranger?
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