Posted in CONCRETE FOREST STATE OF MIND, SOMETHING OPRAH WOULD TELL YOU mental homework (4) Author: jamari fox Published Date: November 21, 2011 13 Comments on mental homework (4) So I was turned out mentally by this comment Killa left Saturday. It can basically be added onto the entry I just wrote below. He left it under the epic entry: How To Have Premium Pussy (Without The Pussy) Check to see what he said… No lol I think that it is a matter of opinion and how a person has been orientated to the life style. My experience with gay brothers who have been down forever and who entered the life say between the ages of 14-18 are much more jaded than gay brothers who have enter the life style at a much later age say between the ages 25-30 are usually are not as jaded as their younger counter parts. The reason being and this is just a subjective hypothesis, but a kat who entered the life style between the ages of 14-18 are mostly bottoms who were turned out by older top dudes. They are orientated to the life style by sucking dicks, or getting topped like crazy with very little appreciation. They are usually either very closeted in middle school or in high school that is if they can stay in the closet because many of them are very effeminate. Their day to day living is filled with shame and self loathing often having to love the other so called str8 boys from a distance. Once they graduate high school many of them never learn relational coping skills than say the str8 brothers who had girlfriends, and by time they graduate and they leave high school they enter into the club scene and the social network scene where they attempt to find validating relationships however mostly due to the nature of those venues they usually find themselves whoring around never finding the happiness the validation from a top that they wanted. The same with is almost true of tops who start messing around at a younger age in most cases they were sexually abused by a older family member or by an other friend. They still defined themselves as str8 but they are usually very conflicted about having sex with other men. They will usually sleep with a friend or an acquaintance but will try to distance themselves from them as soon as they bust a nut. These brothers will rationalize that they are str8 because they are doing the sticking and not getting stuck, and they will often shift the blame of being down to the bottoms they are fucking and often calling them names like faggot, or you like this gay shit don’t ya? These tops tend to get more validation because they can blend into the str8 crowd they are the captains of the football, and basketball teams, they are the members of ROTC they are section leaders in the band or even the Drum Major. These guys date the prettiest girl and in most cases can be the biggest homophobes on campus. I think that they are more unstable emotionally than the bottoms are because if their inner sexual conflict. They may spend long periods of not having sex with men thinking that they are cured of their gayness. These guys will go to college and get into the mix with their roommate, and they will be the DL ballers, and Frat members on campus. They are the ones who will be checking you out while they are hanging out with their boys and with their girlfriends. They will try to draw a closeted bottom roommate but walking around in their underwear sporting huge erections, or they will always find someway to be naked in front of you like always coming out of the shower nude as you enter into the room, or disrobing in front of you before they go into the shower etc. In many cases these guys will find some balance with their sexuality by coming to terms that they like men and that they will fuck men on the side but never really wanting to be in a relationship with them because they still want the social acceptance of being perceived as being str8. These guys are the kats that you will meet online who are married, or in relationship with women who will not be emotionally or physcially available for you. These guys become the kats who the bottoms program him that his shit doesn’t stink. Well… If that didn’t shed light on some things I have been thinking about Wolves for a while now. JAY also left something good too: Also you have to keep in mind our culture as black men. Most of us were taught to internalize everything, so a lot of us are not going to be very approachable and forthcoming, especially not in matters of an unpopular sexuality. I don’t see masculine, black, gay dudes openly showing affection or talking about their sexuality. I’m sure they think they’re masculine, but they don’t look masculine to me. We can get into clocking methods, but the fact is if a dude I deduced to be gay actually approached me I go into defense mode because I don’t know him or his intentions. I’m not saying I would give him the cold shoulder, but I definitely won’t be doing anything to make the encounter easy on his part…even if he is attractive. Shit, I don’t think some of them can hide their sexuality if they wanted to. THOUGHTS? Share this:TwitterPinterestFacebookTumblrLinkedInRedditWhatsAppEmailPrintLike this:Like Loading... 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