i learned the hard way when everything came to ahead.
some people internalize
they’re ultra sensitive
they build stories in silence and then move like they’re facts
under stress,
it can get chaotic.
while i have done the same in past situations,
i found help so i could understand my crazy.
monday and tuesday were an absolute mess.
we had our first shared space fight,
which revealed a lot about each other.
i move on structure and clear communication
they move on impulses and emotions
it reminded me of my grandmother and it triggered me heavy.
after it blew up,
we made up,
but the worst thing happened the next day…
they decided to foster a puppy that came yesterday and i’m bonding with her HEAVY.
this is why i never liked fostering being an animal person.
the thought of bonding with a pet and then giving it up to some new family?
Foxhole,
i’m head over heels with this puppy.
i’m crate training and teaching her to do her business on the wee pad.
for only a few months old,
she already understands not to poop on the floor.
fingers crossed she don’t poop on this floor.
i would love to adopt her but i had a thought today:
the “foster puppy” will soon turn into “jamari’s puppy”.
after what happened earlier this week,
i’m very wary of any more confusion happening.
not only that:
i can’t afford her right now.
i’d have to pay her adoption fees and then deal with food,
along with having to train a couple months old puppy.
i’m doing it now but my foxy senses are yelling things will change once i own her in here.
not only that,
it’ll too small in here for all of us.
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i mean,
it’s true!
if things work out and i get my own space,
and she is still here before anyone adopts her,
then great!
as of right now tho,
i’m thinking strategically and in reality.
Why does my life have such shitty timing?
lowkey: my friend told me to live in the present.
i don’t know what God has in store or how blessings can change a situation.
so as of right now,
that is my puppy so continue loving on her.
Puppys (and full grown dogs) are wonderful, loving souls. They provide unconditional love and companionship in outlr lives. Please remember though, they are fully dependant on their humans. Being mindful of the financial commitment is very important. That commitment is not just food, it’s also medical care. Unfortunately we live in a time of great greed. Many Vetranarian practices have been acquired by Private Equity companies who force their Vets to sell and push unnecessary and very expensive services, treatments, surgeries, and medications. For example, my dog’s annual visit for shots and immunizations generally was supposed to cost about $100. The entire time I was there, I was constantly being sold something. Most all of it unnecessary junk, however they would do a hard sell trying to convince me that my dog would get seriously sick or die with out the treatments And those are the items you had a choice in. Many others were just provided and billed by the do called Vet doctor/salesman. The $100 visit could turn into $1000 quickly. If you think for a moment that you cannot fit it in your budget, don’t do it.