so last night i got off work,
met up my neighbor to watch the latest episode of “euphoria”,
and when i got in at around 11pm…

i legit cried this morning.
i was so embarrassed.
ugh.

woke up early,
had a good gym session,
and took a long walk to get a haircut.
got the message as i was coming home…

i didn’t ask to foster to a puppy.
i never liked the idea because i know me.
i’ll get close to an animal,
bond with it,
love it,
and train it only to then let it gotta go to someone else.
living here has been heavy on impulses with light chaos tbh,
so this puppy has been my peace.
i had the option to adopt and even though its a few hundred,
it’s not on my budget especially with the apartment deadline over my head.
well apparently in a message today…

the kids are not alright.

what do you think drives someones to go through with taking their own life?
like,
what is the final straw?
in my head,
it can be that deep feeling of doom.
as much as you try to tell yourself it’s going to be okay,
your reality is showing you that it might not be.
some people can’t see the glass half full as much as they try.

that or they did something absolutely horrific and death is the best option.
they know they gonna be under the prison so why not end it now.

i always font that when we take your own lives,
even when we have kids,
we are really in a deep place of despair.
hell,
even leaving behind your beloved animal.
i got some shocking news about a couple we have fonted out before.
it’s 1/2 of this viral picture here…

i learned the hard way when everything came to ahead.

some people internalize
they’re ultra sensitive
they build stories in silence and then move like they’re facts

under stress,
it can get chaotic.
while i have done the same in past situations,
i found help so i could understand my crazy.
monday and tuesday were an absolute mess.
we had our first shared space fight,
which revealed a lot about each other.

i move on structure and clear communication
they move on impulses and emotions

it reminded me of my grandmother and it triggered me heavy.
after it blew up,
we made up,
but the worst thing happened the next day…

i bet you they were planning on celebrating big for new years.
boxing wolf,
anthony joshua,
is probably still on a high from winning against the paul jackal.

the praise be praising
the lust be lusting
the new coochie be coochieing

who knew that after a week of bliss,
anthony joshua would be going into 2026 in pain:

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from a tragic car accident and losing his two friends…