“nothing sup with you…”
“liked your pictures and i want to get to know you…”
“lol i said i want to get to know you. i’m feeling what i see…”
“are you okay?
“i’m fine, i’m not retarded. you’re just… different… and that’s different.”
no “how fat is my ass“?
no” when can we fuck“?
no “can we chill one day to watch a movie“?
you actually… want to get know me?
what’s wrong with you?
your left leg is longer than the right?
we all have a hidden “boomquisha/pookie” within us.
that “eye rolling/huffin and puffin/”why is you lying?” spirit that thinks everything is not what it is.
as much as we want to be “buffy/scott“:
the smiling/excited/naive spirit!
… we sometimes simply can’t.
you stay with a hard eye roll because you already know “seeing it believing” and “niggas is bullshit“.
it is a shocker when someone in the lifestyle actually wants to get to know you.
are we so jaded into already thinking the wolf on the other end may only be interested in one thing?
or, is this what the lifestyle has brought us?
i started to wonder…
Do we sabotage potential relationships with our thoughts?
i met someone.
totally by accident.
wasn’t even looking.
i was going through my phone last week and i noticed Jack’d was sitting in a folder.
i thought i erased it, to be completely honest.
i haven’t been on Jack’d since last year when I was talking to the Urban Snow Wolf.
after all his bullshit, I logged out and never looked back.
i felt a little bold that day.
maybe i had too much starburst or something.
i knew i would erase it, but i said “what the hell?“.
i threw a face picture up publicly.
something i NEVER do.
i kid you not, within 3 minutes, i had about 7 messages.
“damn you cute.”
“wassup with you?”
“i’m trying to get that. sup?”
“damn bitch, you is cute.”
…and other typical shit.
none my type.
the last message was a simple:
he had locked pictures, but i liked his profile
i said “what the hell…” and we started talking.
now, i had this thing before where i was trying to be someone else.
i thought that being a “hoe” got you taken seriously.
i even thought being a online thug was “in”.
this time, i was my usual sarcastic smart assey self.
i didn’t “pretend” to be hood or be UN-interested.
i didn’t start talking about sex because i was so use to it.
i just made jokes and showed interested.
after a long 4 hour conversation about everything including sex,
he unlocked his pictures and was quite surprised at how good looking he was.
he is very “early twenties” and isn’t a baller wolf by far,
but he has a conversation.
something i have missed for a while.
sometimes i just want to talk and wolves don’t seem to “get that“.
we exchanged numbers and we are still talking.
we even skyped one night just so i could see him live.
he has a few red flags (drinking and smoking),
but i called him on them early.
thing is, i am taking it very slow.
we haven’t met and i told him i’m not ready to meet until i am ready.
there was no hesitation or even a break in conversation.
and the thing i like: he hits me up.
i did end up later on showing him some foxtail shots.
i was bored.
the first initial stage of meeting someone online.
it is perfect until….
…and that is it.
the “what’s next?”
the, “this is great but…?”
i hate to sound like debbie downer but:
WHAT’S WRONG WITH HIM??!?!?!?
i’m sure he is talking to other foxes.
he is cute as shit.
should i be talking to other wolves?
god forbid he sees my profile online and then he is in his own “dating sabotage” about me.
i feel so over that online scene to even be on there,
but i can’t help but wonder if i should keep my options open?
i’m already on “yes” – this is why i’m on heavy “boomquisha/pookie“.
i started to think about dating sabotage.
is it so hard to go with the flow these days?
or, do you have to stay guarded just in case he turns out to be like everyone else?
should we already have a back up waiting in the wings?
as much as meeting people online is great,
why is it always that one surprise later on?
that one deal breaker that you simply cannot ignore?
an online pimp?
or, perfect in texts/a mess in real life?
this is when “boomquisha/pookie” comes out and sadly, that is where it may end.
so, i had to ask…
Why is it always something?
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