i was having an interesting conversation with a wolf tonight.
the one i have a high key crush on.
he was telling me about his life and the gays he use to run with.
straight up he said…
but i don’t fuck with a lot of gays like that.
but i realized that gay males were fucked up in friendships.”
he admitted he has more straight friends than gay ones.
one of my home vixens,
who happens to be a lesbian,
said the same thing to me a few weeks ago.
i asked her if she was going to any gay pride events in dc.
you know i don’t like a lot of gays.”
she is out as well.
a couple foxholers have also said the same thing.
it is really interesting view.
i can’t date a wolf who is out.
i can’t fuck with wolves who are d/l af either.
i’m only doing in the middle.
i work better with wolves who are discreet.
the “out” world is a different one.
its almost like some of them are dehumanized from feeling any kind of emotion.
they claim they want real friendships/relationships and do the opposite.
“you can hit me up and talk to me about anything!
don’t be scared!
i’m cool af!” – they say.
you hit em up and they too good to converse.
most out gays i have encountered act like straight up and down,
high school ass bitches.
just mean and catty for no fuckin reason.
you know you can still be friends with someone…
…even if you aren’t attracted to them,
it’s a shocking concept,
it’s not about what you look like,
how much money you have,
or what gym membership you own.
it’s about character and loyalty.
will this person drop what they’re doing to rescue my gay ass?
can we talk on the phone and forget how long we been on it?
do they check in on me when they haven’t heard from me in a while?
if i was to take ill tomorrow,
will they show up at the hospital to see me?
i’m tired of these friendships based on sex.
“we can’t be friends if we can’t fuck each other” type shit.
like the concept of a male and a vixen can’t be genuine friends.
everything is sending nudes and “we were hybrids together one night”.
i don’t try to fuck my friends so…
…but maybe i’m just weird.
i do try to fuck the wolf i like,
and even with him,
i want to establish a solid foundation together.
the foxholers are a clear representation of who i would fuck with.
you guys who read and comment seem to have the same values as i.
we appreciate each other here.
i LOVE that shit.
i like those learned how to treat others early on in this life.
you understand what “friendship” is and aren’t catty or judgmental.
you are the only real gay connection i have after star fox.
sometimes i feel an outcast,
but i just learned to stay out of all the drama the gay world can bring.
Is that wrong to font out loud?
lowkey: one of the foxholers told me one time in emails…
“i understand why some gays chase on ‘straight?’ males now.
they represent the type of males we all want that we can’t find within the gay world.”
i thought that was real af.