*i’m currently laying in the swamp of the valley.
my fur is covered in mud and i haven’t gotten up from the bank.
the hyenas and jackals are trying to figure out if i’m dead.
they want to eat me alive.
as the tears are welling up in my eyes,
i am trying to find the strength to get up.
there was a point i was on top of a big mountain,
but evil forces threw me all the way back down to the bottom.
the swamp is a good place to be tho…
i heard a quote the other day that really stuck with me.
it might be negative,
but i will bring it around to something positive.
so the quote went:
“Life is suffering.”
the origin of said quote is unknown,
but from research,
it may or may not have come from buddha.
life might have it’s moments of suckage,
but that suffering is actually good for you.
when i look back at my own suffering…
I first want to start off by thanking you for this site!! Ever since I was 19 this has really been one of my favorite places to visit on the internet, you’re kind of like my big brother Fox in my head lol.
Okay, so here’s my issue, I’m now 25 (soon to be 26) and feel as if I have let my life pass me by. I’m a Discreet (more so DL) Fox that is originally from the Concrete Forest. After battling a crippling depression spiral for the past seven years that basically made my life revolve around going to work and going home, not really doing much besides hanging out with a few vixens that happen to be like family to me. I recently moved to the Southern Forest with this idea in my head that I was going to start building my life to take back what I didn’t get to have in my youth. But now that I’m here in this new forest I am realizing that I have no idea what I’m doing!! Part of the issue is that the career I’m pursuing in entertainment is finally making some headway and I don’t feel comfortable putting up pics on apps and the many wolves that I do catch staring, I always think that they may be out and so I talk myself out of risking it. On top of all that I have been saving my “first time” for that special wolf. & As I’m sure you can imagine this has led to me not having many intimate experiences (Kind of Embarrassing lol)…
What I really want to know is…
Is it still possible to meet a wolf in real life, without apps and online dating? Did I miss my window in my younger days to find puppy love with my Wolf in Shining Fur and instead should I just focus on having a good time for the rest of my 20’s? & If I do meet him will my lack of experience scare him off?
well this goes beyond safe sex.
one of my favorite things to do is read “reddit”.
i’ll be laid up in bed,
and get lost in a good reddit thread.
i saw this topic earlier today:
…and wanted to share it with the foxhole…
“he’s gonna be a drug addict”.
that’s what the adults around me were saying at the time.
the ones who didn’t understand my rebellion after my parent’s deaths.
i was depressed and doing all kinds of shit.
nothing hard like coke or crack.
they showed their entire tails to me after my parent’s both died.
they were either fake af or all about money.
after hitting rock bottom,
i had the right energy around me and was open to avoiding doom.
i caught myself getting humbled in a reddit thread titled…
…or do i?
you ever felt a craving for something,
but you just couldn’t figure out what you wanted?
i get like that constantly.
i think i want something in particular,
but when i get it,
i realize it’s not what i really wanted.
i’m starting to feel this way about the male species…