when we are going through it,
everyone else looks shiny and new. you’re home; they’re out you’re broke, they’re buying versace you’re single; they’re riding the d train to countless orgasms
usually when this is happening,
we are in an emotional desert and our minds are playing tricks on us. every single time that i look at others and feel sudden insecurities,
like i’m missing out or my life really sucks compared to,
they end up telling me how…
when we live our lives in secret, and we are outed, i feel like it’s the Universe putting us to the test.
Do we take our own lives? Do we pretend it never happened? Do we deny, deny, deny?
our answers depend on our personal strength levels.
we know life is going to change,
whether we like it or not. pastor dwayne dawkins, who was ( x famously outed on someone’s ig ), has emerged from the shadows.
he went on larry reid live to discuss the aftermath of the outing…
like animals in the wild, everyone’s life has a moment of hibernation.
even when it’s a season of partying and celebrating,
YOU might just want to lay in bed and binge tv shows all day.
life gets boring.
you have no social life,
in the middle of a transition,
no one is fuckin’ you or wit you,
and you’re literally not in the mood for any bullshit. these days, with no job and in a pandemic with weird violent energy happening outside…