is there really a “right or wrong” in life?
that would be my first question before i get into this entry.
when we were all kids,
our parents taught us what was right and what was wrong.
as we grew up,
we learned some of those things were right and others where their paranoia.
so what we did?
do all the “wrong” to see if they were actually right for us.
i know i have.
when it comes to dating,
and who we choose to date,
in what situations do we follow the same rules?
well i guess i’m may see myself…
so last week,
i hit up “mr. big wolf”,
who was also star fox’s ex.
star fox’s death date is coming up and i wanted to catch up with him.
something was telling me to send him a text so i did.
i hadn’t heard from him since last year,
but i wanted to see how he was and how he was coping.
he has actually been doing better than when we last spoke.
i also told him how i was doing and my new job.
he was extremely ecstatic with me.
we would hit each other up just to say “wassup” after that.
so last night i sent him a random text about something i was watching.
he never responded so i figured he was out and about.
i ended up falling asleep watching the clippers vs the warriors.
i mean computer on,
and lights on.
when i woke up,
i looked at my computer and saw a ton of iMessages waiting to be read.
they were all from mr. big wolf at like 3am.
this is what i saw:
“lol i gotta check it out.
jamari i got to be all the way honest with you.
i really been feeling you since i first met you.
i know it maybe wrong to say that,
but would it be bad that i wanted to be with you?”
read it again.
as you know,
i secretly liked him as well.
he is definitely my type of wolf.
he did have a “ratchet” side,
but it seems like he as changed from those days long ago.
the question is,
“is it right or is it wrong to entertain dating the ex of star fox?”
i guess morals come into play,
but when i asked karaoke this morning she said:
“well realistically jamari,
star fox is gone.
its not like he broke up with him and you jumped in the sack three weeks later.
there are people who marry the exes of people who died.
the issue is if you both got together,
would you be living in past,
comparing each other to star fox,
or will you both go into it with new eyes?
you have to move on and he does as well.
stop thinking you’ll be this bad person.
everyone’s version of a bad person is different.”