i guess,
when i think about it,
i have learned a lot since i left new yawk.
it made me wonder:

was moving here actually a test?

earlier last week at work,
i could sense my boss wasn’t in the greatest of moods.
that might be a cancer thing where we sense emotions well,
but i believe my senses have been heightened with all i been dealing with.
he snapped at me over something trivial,
but since he owns the business,
that trivial fuck up means a lot to him.
instead of snapping back,
or explaining myself like the young fox used to do when he got in trouble:

apologized for the trivial fuck up
immediately shut the fuck up and let him talk
let him have his time to stabilize their emotions
went back to scrolling the nets when he went back to his office

on friday,
he came up to me and did something i didn’t see coming…

in my head,
and i’ve ( x fonted it before ),
something happened to flash brown.
i don’t know if it was when he was in prison,
or just the path of male sex work in general,
but his outcome is really interesting.
as you know,
he looked like this before:

^you can listen to this interview from 2015 on youtube

…but like a pokemon,
he has evolved into what appears to be his final to the final form.
an F-BI sent me “mya” and Foxhole…

sometimes after the breakup,
i know those “LooK YaLLz! ThIs Is mY MaNZ!” posts hit different.

i like megan thee stallion,
and i don’t understand all the unwarranted hate she gets,
but her relationship with klay thompson was a lesson in…

back shots?
bussy baby?
these are the names of the folks that ray j is cool with at the “gaygency”.
who in the what?
i can’t and also:

i thought ray j was near death or something?

at this point,
his career is just trolling.
he hosts shows on zeus and trolls on social media.
sounds like a cushy job for the ill and near death tbh.
anyhoo,
ray j was on cam newton’s show and cam asked him if he is gay.
how he answered…

a wolf slid me his number yesterday.
i had spoken to him on the phone at work and he sounded cute.
like,
really cute.
usually,
that is not the case with some males on the phone.
anyway,
the part that got me was when he said…

again: 17 dollars.

yesterday,
so i was told to be out of this apartment by july 1st.
i’m at my new job,
trying to focus on what i was doing,
but i’m getting the craziest texts in real time.

all over 17 dollars.

i had to send people the screenshots as they were happening.
when i’m not in here anymore,
i’ll post them with more details on the entire situation.
imagine staying with someone…