if my parents didn’t make me feel so horrible about myself,
i often how far i’d be in my life?
i’d imagine everything i do wouldn’t lead to what others would think of me.
they made me fear being gay or even have feminine tendencies.
would say in her snarky tone…
“If you ever turned out to be one of them sissies,
don’t even come back into this house.”
do you know how it feels to be beaten,
all because they saw you do something “feminine”?
i’m sure many in the foxhole can relate.
that created a very destructive and self-homophobic young fox.
i hated seeing myself in videos because i could point out the feminine traits within me.
it led me to very hard on myself at times.
like star fox said to me one time:
“you peel yourself down like a mango.
going layer after layer until you get to the center.”
i always felt i didn’t fit in because i had a strong attraction to other boys,
but i wasn’t supposed to feel that way.
i closed myself off because those who were supposed to love and protect me,
they were pretty much judging me.
don’t get me wrong,
i had good times,
but there were some really shitty moments that fucked me up.
i wasn’t like the other males,
especially my cousin,
who ironically is gay too.
when i told my mother i was molested by my late grandmother’s doctor,
it was swept underneath the table.
i had to bury that and just move on with my life.
bad enough i was getting picked on at school.
my life was hell
…so i learned to try and fit in.
i took on roles like the straight wolves around me to stay under the radar.
i’m pretty comfortable in my own fur,
but there are those few times i get crazy insecure.
i applaud parents like dwyane wade who support their children.
this is zion wade at a recent fashion show:
Fathers please don’t allow your children to bend and conform to societal pressures.
“We are developing epidemic levels of the effeminization of young black males”- Dr Frances Welsing pic.twitter.com/ySbafiRyvv
— Malcolm X Play Cousin (@thecrewsdad) March 19, 2019
parents want to cry to the heavens because they’re male child turns out to be gay.
they abuse them in many ways in trying and “get the gay out”.
they end up raising the socio and psychopaths we are stuck with today.
my life situation taught me how to feel compassion and empathy.
zion wade is pretty lucky to be born into privilege,
where he doesn’t have to worry about money or his parents picking him apart.
i admire parents like that.
it raises pretty awesome kids.
even the ones who raise their kids to not judge others because they might be different.
we need more parents like d wade.
when a story like this breaks,
you can already see on social media who will treat their kids like shit.
a majority of the time: currently.