You Do Know My Name

Well Golly….

I found him again.
I didn’t even think he knew how to use the computer.
Ol computer illiterate negro.

Boy, was I wrong.
And years later, he still makes me horny.

My Ex husband is back…. well, kinda.

I call him my Ex husband because he was a dude that had Jamari all fucked up.
Way back when of course.
All when I was a young fox,
unaware of this lifestyle I would be living years later.

I met him in the early oo’s and to be honest,
I didn’t really like him when I first met him.
Typical tall, light skinned, type hood model dude.
What wasn’t to like?
He was cute….

….ok, thats a lie, he was FINE I can’t lie….

…. but I figured something looking like that was straight.
He was all over his girlfriend (many of them) on my friend’s couch.
So as days went on, I started noticing he would act kinda weird around me.
Good kinda weird.
He would find ways to touch me, come over alone to play video games, looking me deep in my eyes, and make slick undercover comments that went way over my head.

I mean, there was that one time I was wearing this nice scent see, and his nose was on my neck right………. and he forgot he was in a public setting.

I was a DUMB FOX, I tell ya.
I should of had that…. a couple times.
But, I will admit that I was really scared.
Young Fox and not familiar with this lifestyle yet.
I didn’t want to believe what I was feeling was true and that this dude,
A DUDE,
was feeling the same about me.

It took a friend at the time,
to let me know this dude has the hots for me secretly.
When I started to pay attention, the dynamics changed and I ended up chasing him.
He, in turn, became the bait.

Back and forth, back and forth it went for a year and a half with no answers.
We lost touch (he vanished) and I was devastated.

…. and during that time,
Alicia Keys came out with “You Don’t Know My Name”.
That song was my theme song for that era.
Described the situation PERFECTLY.

Foxes, you know what I am talking about.
That “straight” dude that comes into your life that gives you all the signs of an easy catch, but then years go by and still you are not caught?

He was that one for me.

I managed to find him because I was on a popular online site and we have mutual acquaintances. I went to that acquaintance page and put his name in her friend’s list and WAH-LAH.

Double word score… with a private page.

Now,
I could add him, BUT we did not come to an end of the best of terms.
Not saying anything he did,
but he is still cool with people I am not… and they all have it.

We had a spark.
A connection.
It was something between us I never felt before.

… and all these years, and I still feel it.

He could be 110% straight now and I am a distant memory to him.
I should let sleeping dogs lie, but I guess I need closure.
Something I never got.

Maybe this is a developing story of the EX-HUSBAND FILES,
or maybe it is a one blog stand,
but I’ll keep you guys informed……

…. because if we reconnect again and that muthafucka slips says he wanted me and still does……


Get my drift?

Later Foxes

4 thoughts on “You Do Know My Name

  1. LOL THAT GIF IS FUNNY! WELL I THINK YOU SHOULD ONLY RECONNECT IF YOU ABSOLUTELY WANT TO. DO NOT DO IT AND YOU ARE NOT READY TO HANDLE IT IF HE SAYS NO.

    ANYWHO ON TO MORE IMPORTANT MATTERS….I BELIEVE I SENT YOU AN EMAIL AND YOU NEVER REPLIED AGAIN….LEMME GET MY GUN..I LOVE YOU JAMARI BUT I GOTS TO SHOOT YOU NOW OR YOU WILL NEVER LEARN GOOD EMAIL ETIQUETTE!

    *DOVIELEE

  2. Well first of all, i wouldn’t advise anyone to date a man who’s still into women. Those are the types who tend to be with you for a while… and then one day… wake up and say they want a wife and kids. Buti totally understand where your coming from. The spark never really leaves. You’re reminded of all the times u were really happy and life was cute. However, if he broke up with you, i dont think its a good idea to seek him out again. He pretty much evaluated your relationship together, and said, “No, thanks. I’ll try my luck elsewhere.”

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