I just read an amazing entry from one of my loyal Foxes, So Vain 1.
READ ENTRY HERE.
It left me sorta speechless, angry, confused, and content all in one breath.
I love someone who can do that to me.
Means you are more than just a pretty face.
But, that entry got me to thinking about my own issues within The Concrete Forest.
Things I have gone through in my privacy.
Thoughts that I have had in my own confused mind.
Look I’m not trying to be full of myself (well a little never hurt),
but let me run down my resume…
I’m trying to figure out why I am single when:
I’m pretty attractive and I use to be a little model.
I am slim with nice cakes and even tighter walls.
I have a job, but I have a career that I am desperately trying to pursue (i.e goals)
I am discreet and follow the rules of discretion.
I have my own crib and pay my bills on time.
My Fox Swagg is on point. I got a nice little wardrobe.
I’m not crazy, a stalker, or even a mass murderer.
I’m funny as hell and my charisma is on 1,000.
I’m pretty damn good in bed and like to try new exciting freaky things.
… I have all these great qualities, but I’m alone?
Hell, even if I could meet a dude I’m exclusively fucking that could just be a friend.
Has the world changed and I didn’t get the memo?
It makes me cringe when I hear people say:
“Why is someone like you single?”.
“You are too sexy to be single?”
“I know you got someone that is treating you right?”
“When last you got some good dick?”
Star Fox telling me that I should already be with a baller.
Cousin Fox confused as to why I’m not surrounded in men.
It makes me think there is something wrong with me.
Even though I have broken myself down and everything comes up clean.
I pretty much live my life low key.
I’m not always in the club looking for niggas to fuck or doing the choreography to Single Ladies.
It is the weirdest thing.
BUT I BET YOU….
If I looked like this:
… or if I was broke as a joke.…
….Or some loud mouth queen bee that will out you in 2.5 seconds….
I’d have Wolves lining up at my door.
It is like dudes want the drama and then complain when drama happens.
My idea of drama must be different than these new school niggas.
If I was fucking them on bunk beds, sharing with my little brother at my mammy house.
Sucking their dicks in alleys or hallways or even never listening to a nigga when he needed a shoulder.
I’m not saying I’m a good boy because I can be very bad.
I’m stubborn, moody, procrastinate, and can contradict myself like it was nothing
But I like to show that side to Wolves I’m shootin the shit with.
Ya know, I apologize that I am attracted to attractive Wolfs.
I apologize that I’m 1 of 2,000 Foxes looking for the same thing.
I apologize that they tend to be stupid and don’t see a good thing.
I also apologize that I’m not sucking the first dick that comes through my door.
I apologize my ass is not hanging on by safety pins and Krazy Glue.
I’ll pray to God and ask him to show me what is wrong with me.
Maybe I can get my answers through that outlet.
There is a part 2 to this coming soon.