How do you expect to move on, if you do not have closure?
That is the question ringing in my mind.
I don’t know if I am the type to hold a grudge, per say.
But, I do hold onto things even though I claim I am over it.
I will use those little things as examples for me not to fuck up in the future.
Which I think is relatively smart, but you do need to let go so you can successfully move on.
But, moving on is hard to do when you do not have closure.
So the real question is…
How do you really get closure?
I see you Fox obsessing over the last Wolf who broke your heart.
Every Wolf that comes into your peripherals will never be better than your last.
One that you will use against him subconsciously when he fucks up.
He will be “that Wolf like all the rest of em” that you find little things to use against him.
Every other Wolf, good or bad, will now have a flaw or an issue with.
Sadly, it is not good because you aren’t opening your eyes to new experiences.
You are not using that past example as a positive experience.
Now, you are guarded.
Wolf, you are next.
You also have a situation where someone broke your heart or let you down.
Unlike the Fox or Vixen who pines over a lost love, you just say “fuck it”.
By fuck it you really mean fuck them and their feelings.
So you meet Foxes and sleep with them without any attachments.
You probably met great Foxes you could have been with or even be friends with,
but you only thought with a body part that has no brain.
As you do this, you create a distant between yourself and everyone else.
Which ultimately leads you to a life of loneliness.
Sure, you can get em and sex em,
but your own personal demons are not allowing you to keep em.
Now you have become guarded.
I can’t seem to get over the fact I am alone in this world.
I have so much to say to my parents who have died, but they are not here.
I cannot yell at them or curse them out like I want.
I have to speak to air and hope it travels to them.
I needed them to help me during the important trials in my life.
Shit, I wish I had them to rescue me and tell me it is okay.
I been guarded.
The scenario can be changed like a Rubix Cube,
but the outcome is always the same.
We are all guarded from trying not be hurt again.
Some of us are lucky enough to not be guarded and they go through life pretty easy.
They meet people, get hurt, and leave it as a chance experience for a new beginning with another.
I always admired that shit.
I like people who are just open to new experiences without holding onto old ones.
Granted you need to remember the hurt you felt so it can teach you,
but you let go of the experience and forgive.
My question is, can you forgive?
Can you complete forgive the person or situation that hurt you?
Can you let go and move on knowing something better is around the corner?
Are you in a better flow of life, or are you stuck in the dangers of the past?
Those are things you need to think about if you want to proceed.
Hell, I am doing it right now so I can make a change for the better.
So I have to ask…