there is something sexy about dominating another male in the bedroom.
there is also something sexy about the feeling of being submissive.
many males brag about dominating sexually,
but if you are good at emotional role-play,
you can have him submit to you and only you.
that is a whole other topic tho.
in sex,
i have fonted to many Foxholers that love to dominate,
especially the cocky or homophobic males.

i lovvvvvvvvvvvvvvved hearing about a past attentionisto that is so homophobic online,
and had an issue when i fonted about him on The Foxhole,
but he sure did bend over and get smutted out when his money and aura started running low.

allegedly fonting that is.
the point is not the alleged tea but:

males love to dominate other males who claim they are alpha

personally,
i think a lot of gays revel in domination because of past bullies.
in some of my fantasies,
i have topped a few of my bullies and OPPS.
i could never imagine the thought of them getting on top of me.

gays are still males at the end of the day,
so topping another male feels sexy and alpha.

i saw this post on reddit about sleeping with a past bully.

by that description,
that jackal would never touch me,
but everyone in the comments was fonting about destroying that past bully’s hole.
it was this comment that stopped me in my scroll…

i think this wolf is fuckin’ hot.
there are certain wolves i find sexy for many things but also:

They reminded me of someone from my past.

alexa play “you remind me” by usher.
^he reminds me of a wolf i use to know…

I couldn’t help but wonder:
Have you ever noticed how we can romanticize things to drown out the doubts?

when i first met a past wolf-turned-jackal,
but this can be any male i was really into…

life can be pretty interesting when we make it that way.
i’m learning that when we think and feel differently,
we can create magic within our lives.
yesterday,
i was feeling pretty good.
i have been feeling pretty good these last two weeks tbh.
i said to myself:

“I am wanted.
I am desired.
I am getting apologies from people who hurt me.
I am safe.”

i want to start speaking to myself differently.
i kid you not that shortly after i said that…

Continue reading “past rewind so i press fast forward (or eject the tape completely)” →

after years of being in no contact,
getting into other relationships,
and 1/2 having new mouths to feed,
it seems like ashanti and nelly are back together in 2023.
^this is them at the gc black ball.

 

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the gp is split down the middle with opinions.

Some were hoping they’d get back together.
Others think she is crazy, especially with how he treated her.

…but can people change enough for that reconnect?
who we were in our teens,
we aren’t in our 20s,
and who we were in our 30s is not who we are in…
well,
you get the picture.

i’ve been thinking a lot about getting back with those from your past.
this can even be about friendships,
estranged family members,
and returning to jobs we left many moons ago.
we all know that facebook is where the past tends to find us again but…

Continue reading “ashanti and nelly make “spin the block” look good” →

in life,
we will have people who have done us wrong.
for many of us,
we worked our asses off to become who we are now.
whether it is a successful career,
a massive glo’up,
or both,
we use that revenge from hurt to fuel us into being better.
i have a question for the foxhole,
and i hope it doesn’t come off ignorant but…

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