there comes a time when everyone goes through a “worn out” period.
a lot of shit starts happening that can bring your energy down.
you start feeling like you don’t have the will to do anything.
some sex could release it.
maybe even a vacation or drugs.
those are all temporary fixes to a much bigger problem.
the problem being you.
so before i start,
i want to apologize to you…
i’ve been mentally exhausted these last few weeks.
it seems like during those weeks,
everything in my life went topsy-fuckin-turvy.
there have been some good times,
but i’ve been feeling completely out of it.
it has been effecting my will to produce work for the foxhole.
i try to update the foxhole as much as i can,
and with a ton of shit as i can,
but lately i’ve been feeling run down.
everything i got in front of my magic wand,
the one i called “my laptop”,
i have been shooting blanks.
nothing interested me.
i knew it was a problem when i didn’t get the urge to post fine wolves.
i did my press kit and haven’t even sent that out yet.
so i wasn’t doing as much as i know i could have been.
it wasn’t like i was partying or chillin’ with others.
i been legit sleeping.
feeling tired as fuck and needed a good 12 hours to recoup.
that is not my life.
that also isn’t fair to you.
there have been other things i have been neglecting as well.
i wonder if this is what it feels like to “give up”?
i don’t like it at all.
well i got my magic wand back today.
my travel laptop is fixed and ready to go.
they replaced the keys,
and threw in a new battery for good measure.
my other laptop was way too slow for what i do.
i hope when:
i find a better job/my career starts poppin’
mi leaves and i get my crib back
i bring all this extra stress down
…that i will be back to my regular “foxy” self.
thank you for being patient with me as i deal.