after scrolling through my twitter timeline,
looking at friends ig stories in protest,
and seeing all frustration within the black community,
i just laid on my couch for about 20 minutes staring out the window.
things are so horrible right now.
All this racism
Black lives being taken
Unemployment at an all time high
The President doing absolutely nothing but just ranting
…and then my own personal life and the issues going on with mi.
it’s like i have no words at this moment about it all.
this is all i could muster up…
i’m exhausted for whatever reason.
i know the reason.
these last two weeks at work have been high priority drama.
it’s been extra busy for absolutely no reason.
for such a small office setting…
i know you’ve been here for a week.
you’ve done a pretty good job doing all of the basic tasks we asked for.
you’ve taken initiative to make sure the office is fully stocked and cleaned.
how are you feeling about this position?
is it something you’d be interested in?…”
in a perfect wonderland,
my current supervisor would run that paragraph by me.
i sat and watched all the interviews from my head huntress come in.
not only that…
i left early today.
i definitely wasn’t feeling good…
there comes a time when everyone goes through a “worn out” period.
a lot of shit starts happening that can bring your energy down.
you start feeling like you don’t have the will to do anything.
some sex could release it.
maybe even a vacation or drugs.
those are all temporary fixes to a much bigger problem.
the problem being you.
so before i start,
i want to apologize to you…
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