“its all about me me me me me…
forget about you you you you…”
the song was about her saying she wanted to be pampered by her man that night.
more often than not,
we get into this nasty habit of giving too much of ourselves to everyone.
someone sends a text,
we reply right back.
someone calls and we must pick up on the second or third ring.
someone is horny and we must go fuck them.
we can be way too available.
i’m realizing that is actually bad and needs to killed with fire…
this weekend was an eye opener.
i was looking through some texts yesterday and realized something:
I GIVE WAY TOO MUCH OF MYSELF
from mi and my friends.
i even noticed with work wolf.
he sends a text,
and even tho i may not respond right away,
i definitely see i’m doing way too much “trying to be there”.
i am not selfish enough with myself.
i feel like if i’m not “there”,
then that means i am being a bad friend.
hell a bad person.
people would leave me if i wasn’t there.
when in reality,
i have given a lot of myself.
i have built people up and have been left high and dry.
when i need them,
they don’t know how to help me.
THE SEASON OF SELFISHNESS
have you noticed when you don’t respond back,
or are very involved with your own shit,
people come a lot harder?
there is a power there you don’t realize.
when you are always available,
people get spoiled by that.
what you don’t realize is it can be very energy draining.
you spend so much time focusing on others,
time goes by and you see you haven’t done shit for yourself.
lost all this weight
be too invested in an unavailable wolf
put up with a fuck shit job
i would be so focused on me and my happiness,
i would probably be in a better place.
well ain’t no time like the present,
i want you to take a look at yourself like i did.
are you too available?
are you giving too much emotionally?
do people chase you and its mutual?
do they answer your calls/texts with the same speed?
or are you always left blowing up a phone to no response or a limited one?
always focus more on YOU first.
YOU are the only answer in this equation.
when people prove themselves they ain’t on the “fuck shit”,
then you can start giving yourself until matched 50/50.
maybe its time you stop giving to much head,
and start having these wolves eat you out?
maybe its time you stop making him a priority when you just an option?
maybe its time to stop being the doormat and start being a little more selfish?
it might be time to leave some people high and dry.
lowkey: lets start small.
this will not be easy.
change ain’t easy.
instead of answering people so fast,
let them wait a while.
you can go as long as you want before you respond.
take that time to do something good for you.
treatin’ yoself or creating a master plan.
hell you could be taking a nap.
time slows down for others when you are doing YOU.