i have this need,
maybe a want,
to always put people before my own happiness.
i can live in my head a lot and that casts the most doubt about myself.
for instance…

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“everything you did brought you where you are now.
home.” – bran stark to theon greyjoy,
game of thrones

that quote really stuck with me since last night’s episode.
i’ve been thinking about it all day.
for those who know theon’s arc on “game of thrones”,
you know what he got humbled in order to come “home”.
i remember reading a book called “the alchemist” a few years ago…

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imagine you’re working in your career.
you could be doing it now.
you.
are.
the.
shit.
king kong don’t have nothing on you.
you been doing it like 10-15 years now.
even better since you’re black.
you know they don’t like “us” to shine out here.
suddenly,
they are trying to replace you with someone else.
it starts slow,
but then it gets more blatant.
the slander starts that you ain’t good at what you do at all.

“anyone could do what they do.
that’s nothing.”

folks you thought was down with you are picking a new team.
“the new you”.
  don’t act like you wouldn’t feel some kind of way…

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eh.
i didn’t like the song anyway.
remy couldn’t even save it.
she sounded off.
mariah needs to do better.
i did like this track with remy on it tho…
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i must have come a long way.
before,
my anger issues would have had me going in.
( x see why here )
now…
i’m all zen and shit.
…the fuck did that happened?
i have learned something about me…
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mya has a song called “its all about me”.
first album.
the chorus goes:

“its all about me me me me me…
forget about you you you you…”

the song was about her saying she wanted to be pampered by her man that night.
more often than not,
we get into this nasty habit of giving too much of ourselves to everyone.
someone sends a text,
we reply right back.
someone calls and we must pick up on the second or third ring.
someone is horny and we must go fuck them.
we can be way too available.
i’m realizing that is actually bad and needs to killed with fire…
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