“they are both in a better place.” – i say.
i think about star fox more these days,
but i will never forget my mama.
the other day,
i saw her “twin” on the train.
i had no voice to say anything.
i wanted to tell her she looked like my mother.
down to the mannerisms and all.
i just watched her and took it all in.
last thursday night,
i found myself talking to her before bed.
i was more emotionally connected to my mother.
as every fox usually is.
well i started asking her what i should do.
there was a lot on my mind and i had no one to turn to.
it ended up with me having a dream about her.
i don’t remember the dream fully,
i just know we were in a car and it was stuck in some mud.
like a lot of mud.
how we were going to get out was anyone’s guess,
but she was there and it made me feel better.
i realized she is always there with me.
“To see mud in your dream suggests that you are involved in a messy and sticky situation. It also suggests that some spiritual cleansing is needed.”
i have to be strong for mi today.
she lost her mother last year and is very withdrawn today.
she has to go through the motions.
first year of losing parentals is always tough.
i lost two so i should know.
i want the foxhole,
who have their mothers,
to treat them extra special today.
she may not be perfect,
but she deserves it.
hell she pushed your big head out for a couple of hours.
for those who don’t have one,
you know that i’m with you.
it’s just a day.
we will get through it the best way we can.
in thought and loving memory of how great she was,
but never forgetting how she’s still there even tho she cannot be seen.