I have had to fake an orgasm before.
You know, a Wolf slides on top of/side of/or behind you and doesn’t know what the FUCK he was doing?
It’s like every time you get in bed with him, you could feel the vomit rising in your throat.
I secretly wanted to tell him, “Hey buddy there are books on ways to fuck me! You ever heard of foreplay?”
But, I didn’t want to be rude and be a total asshole.
So I did what a Fox could only do…
I faked it.
I continued to fake it three more times until I decided to leave well enough alone.
But I wondered that if I kept the facade up, where would I be now?
He was interested in pursuing something, BUT he had so many negatives that I could not find one positive reason to stay.
Was I being smart?
Or, should I have done what everyone else is doing these days?
Is it better to fake it?
I am not a good faker AT. ALL.
It will show ALL over my face and then the gig will be up.
I am sure I would be a easy target playing poker.
But when I get into a relationship, I do not want to fake anything.
I want to go into it with my all and not play the “faking” game.
Getting with someone who is clearly not right for me,
but I do it anyway because I do not want to be alone.
Wolves have been known to fake whole relationships.
But, why are they so good at it?
They can hit you up and make you feel like they are truly interested in you.
They will flirt with you like they are not sleeping with anyone else.
And when they fuck you?
OMG – it is like they LOVE you.
But then they can drop you, move on, and never speak to you again.
Should Foxes learn to fake it before we make it official?
Should we learn to put our feelings to the side while we meet these Wolves?
I know that I have stopped returning texts/phone calls as fast and being so open as I was when I was younger.
I have just learned to go with the flow… but I always seem to expect the worst rather than the best.
Life is general can make even the biggest realists fake it.
But, what happened to being real when we meet someone who may not be so real?
And how do we not fake it when the other person may actually be the real copy of what we are looking for?
He may be a little dusty or even a little fat… but he is a good person who treats us right.
How do we continue to have him slide on top/ on the side/or behind us and not pretend we want something else?
Like the old saying…