i want you to do something for me.
ready?
it might be a big ask for some but…

i want you to admit to yourself that you are not okay.
i want you to honestly say to yourself that life has gotten hard.
i want you to come to terms with yourself that society has changed.
i want you to understand that you have changed.

something was urging me to write this today because someone needed to read that.
someone has been carrying a lot and trying to smile through it.
something urged me to do the same as well.
someone needs to know they aren’t alone in their feelings.
let me inhale…

okay so boom:

i am mentally and emotionally exhausted with society,
many people in my life,
and certain circumstances i’ve been placed in.
i am beyond tired of giving so much emotionally,
but when it comes to me,
i get crumbs.
it has made me emotionally selfish,
mentally drained,
and physically over it.
i want to be social and i want to get back out there to date but at the same time,
i don’t want to be bothered because i am bothered.

i don’t know if i’m in a season or preparation or what,
but i would like to know all of this struggle,
hurt,
and pain will not be for nothing.
while i try to find joy and search for peace,
i find myself being more sad and disappointed by everything.

it’s like we were in such a peaceful place and for whatever reason,
many people decided to send us straight to hell.
maybe we don’t know what we had until it up and left?
maybe this is the new normal and we need to find a way to survive within it?
my biggest thought i keep having is:

how do we find joy when life is trying to burn us out?

maybe we are just looking to finally exhale.

cue the legend: