i once met a wolf so fine,
he could’ve made me cum with no hands.
he was into me,
but like,
“into me into me”.
while he tried to get to know me,
iwas busy imagining him deep inside me.
needless to font,
i missed the whole plot due to my trauma and what life trained me to do.

lately,
i’ve been thinking about wolves.
(when am i not?)
one question keeps looping in my head from past experiences…

do we know when to turn off the lust?

there are actually a ton of gorgeous males,
on rih’s socials and IRL,
who genuinely want to seriously date.
like,
want to take you to dinner and ask about your dreams type dating.
like,
remembers things you have told them so they can surprise you later dating.
there are many males we wouldn’t expect to be this way because of what we assume.
the connection gets blurry when one person is auditioning for love,
and the other’s using the fastest way to earn the part is…

you guessed it: fucking.

our problem:

we’ve been so conditioned to seduce first and bond later.
we start with bodies and try to reverse the intimacy after.
we meet someone fine and subconsciously ask:

“would he date me if I didn’t make it easy?”

the answer scares us so so we perform.
we’re too busy trying to impress the idea of them.
that’s why it’s easy to find sex but hard to find a date.

their problem:

if you’ve been told you’re fine since puberty and social media,
and your DMs look like a OF comment section,
you stop putting in effort.
pretty privilege turns into emotional laziness.
they get addicted to being wanted,
but never had to develop a personality to be loved.
so they stay in surface-level relationships,
playing the role of “the beautiful one getting their brains fucked out“,
but secretly craving real connection.

they meet us,
the “regula degula”,
and we fuck the connection up by doing what they’re use to.
even if we are just as attractive,
we fuck up trying to appeal to lust.

this is why i believe it’s often better to meet someone fine offline,
in spaces where they have to interact with you,
not just perform for a camera.
this is why a majority of them are always single but on the flip side:

our need to perform for sex in hope of being picked is what is keeping us single too.