we all have to grow up sometime.
being a gay fox in this forest,
i live in a little bubble.
i’m so focused on getting my own life together,
all the straights i use to know have a cub(s) now.
i was just in the store,
trying to pick out something to eat.
i’m not in the mood to cook so a tv dinner is on the forecast.
out my right eye,
i see someone waving me down.
when i look,
with full “wtf is this?“…
…i see a baby carriage and a past friend i haven’t seen in ages.
it was a straight home wolf i use to run these forests with.
i haven’t seen him since like 2012.
i remember when he use to wild tf out at parties.
he would be on the scene,
and messing with half the vixens in harlem.
He’s a Dad of one now
…and he looks like one.
you can tell his life has changed dramatically.
it was so interesting to see how much he has changed.
i didn’t think i’d ever see “this” for him.
he told me 98% of the folks we use to hang with are with child(ren).
and here i am childless,
and very okaywith that.
he asked when i was gonna have a little one.
it made me realize how different being gay really is.
i don’t even think about having kids on most days.
i’m still trying to pay off bills and get my shit in order.
gays can pretty much do whatever we want,
and if we are smart,
can live extremely full and abundant lives.
we don’t have the traditional “straight” life of having kids.
after i left him,
it made me wonder…
What would life be like if gays had kids traditionally?
i know we can adopt,
but what if we could have kids like the straights do?
raw sexin’ leading to someone’s son getting pregnant.
even with the kid(s)…
Would we be still be out here living recklessly?
a full sex party while the kid(s) asleep upstairs.
being on jack’d or grindr while shopping for school clothes.
Would it force us to slow down and be more responsible?
it’s not a dog or a cat.
it’s a whole little human to look out for.
would that change our lives drastically?
it reminds me of this: