there are many paths.
some foxes turn out to be wealthy as hell due to extreme focus.
others almost make it,
and go the “jackal” route.
suckin’ and fuckin’ everything until they can’t do it no mo.
the rest are so confused they just blend in with the wall.
it’s funny how the focused ones become super independent.
choosing “career” or “school”,
social life becomes pretty much non-existent.
the end result is a fantastic career or a great living…
…but absolutely no one to rescue us when we fall.
i had to wonder…
Was that my path?
i’m happy to be finally home!!!
i spent the entire weekend taking care of a friend.
location: the sixth borough aka jersey.
she texted me out the blue saying she was really sick.
i don’t really do jersey,
but she needed help so i was there.
i packed up a few things and was on the next path train to her crib.
ride took absolutely forever since she was in east bubble fuck.
when i unpacked,
i realized i forgot my laptop!!!!!
i actually realized JUST how much it plays a major role in my life these days.
the weekend consisted of making sure she was okay,
watching shows on demand,
and raiding her very stocked fridge.
the latter was actually my favorite part.
the struggle is all to real for me in ny.
she was so drugged up on meds that we barely talked,
so being in this new place felt like a vacation.
one i needed.
it was so quiet over there too.
“michael myers in the woods” kinda quiet.
not the quiet i was use too.
other things that stood out:
nice ass neighbors
a lot of white people
two car garages
gardens with actual living flowers
the grass was actually a nice shade of green
it made me want to live there.
i want that suburban life.
sadly my friend,
a successful vixen with many degrees and a good career,
lived in this nice home and was alone.
she had to text me to come rescue her.
what about her wolf?
the one i would imagine that had a lot of money himself?
the stock broker?
the investment banker?
it’s not like she is ugly.
she is really pretty.
she just chose the path of success.
one where she had to focus.
hell, she paid her bills on time!
let’s not even get on the fridge.
she told me she can get sex easy,
but wolves tend to be either intimidated or try to use her.
she is hip to the games now and why she is pretty much alone.
i started to wonder about success and loneliness.
is being successful intimidating?
does it make you extra guarded?
or, does it just put a sign on your head that says:
THIS ONE REQUIRES MORE EFFORT AND WORK.
i started to wonder…