so work wolf and i had another argument.
i’m the one who is finally in control of my feelings tho.
i’m about ready to chuck him the peace signs…
so remember that incident at my spot?
( x this one )
well he admitted that he felt some kind of way today…
he sorta did.
he said he forgot all about it,
but it made him feel a little weird.
so i apologized and told him that wasn’t my intentions.
so during the “argument” tonight,
he brought this up about my lack of “common sense”:
“i don’t want to bring up the gay issue,
but ima bring this up.
you know that i’m straight,
you had your arms all on my shoulders.
why would you do something like that?”
i wanted to say i had them all in your head too.
so basically he admitted he was mad about it.
when i started to say my peace about it,
then he said he wasn’t mad.
i should have “known better”.
so i asked him why he didn’t say anything last week?
he said he “shouldn’t have brought it up tonight”.
i said i won’t invite him over my crib again.
why would i invite someone over,
who clearly didn’t want to do something,
but did it anyway?
he gets an attitude.
first you tell me you weren’t mad,
then you say you felt a certain way,
then you said you were mad,
and you finally say you weren’t mad and you don’t want to talk about it.
finally he says:
“i wasn’t going to disrespect you in your own crib by saying something.”
oh hell naw pineapple.
he is too “all over the place” for me.
it makes me wonder if i’ve done things that made him uncomfortable?
i always ask him,
or throw up a disclaimer,
if i can do something or even touch him.
he always says:
“yeah go ahead”
…but now i gotta wonder if those were all lies?
was he just tolerating me?
was this all some kind of game?
i walked away from him because i was too vex.
he is mad at that.
silent treatment on deck.
well i’m mad you are so unsure of yourself.
i’m mad you might be a liar.
Do i really need that in my life?
i seriously don’t.
he may have to go.
lowkey: see why i took it slow and was cautious?