why do we go back?
why do we turn around for the sequel?
maybe even sign on for a trilogy?
it was a question i was asking myself today.
as much as we expereinced so much hurt the first go round…
Why do we go back to those who aren’t good for us?
can sex be that good?
do the “good times” erase all the bad ones?
it’s not like there aren’t a billion folks in the world today.
some with much better qualities and home training.
trust me when if font that it sucks when a hyena or jackal becomes your world.
they are the moon,
and the fuckin’ sky.
all you see is them.
everyone else becomes invisible to your eyes.
i’ve been there.
so a friend of mine went back to their abuser.
i’m a little upset by it,
but i can’t judge.
they came to me because they felt more comfortable with me.
their other friends are judgment heavy.
i’m a little disappointed tho.
when they left,
i cheered them on.
it was like a weight was lifted off their shoulders.
you could see the “glow” starting to peak out.
now that they went back,
it hasn’t been like a good week and they look confused again.
it’s “insta-stalking” and “walking on egg shells”.
i’m starting to think we go back because of three things:
1) drama is exciting
2) no one wants to be lonely
3) addictions are hard to break
i’ve thought about those who hurt me,
but i remember all the shit they did to me.
the worst is when you think about what you tolerated.
when you have to remember how much of a fool you were.
that keeps me from going backwards.
i have to realize not everyone has evolved yet.
i’m not immune to doing a 180 over a “i’m sorry” either.
so i’ll continue to be there for my friend,
When will enough be enough?
…and will it ever?