Today was a strange day for this Fox.
I sat in my house, practically in the dark and let random thoughts take over me.
I watched television for a little and tried to cheer myself up.
Realistically, I did SHIT besides have a mini meeting to discuss future plans and goals.
I have decided to move forth on a few ventures alone,
since as of late,
I have been treated like SHIT.
But, being alone and in the dark can be dangerous.
It brings about the things that you keep hidden.
Things that causes the worst depressions and thoughts you can’t un-think.
An idle mind truly is the devil’s playground…
I had to ask myself today why am I always in this situation.
You know, seeing through people and cutting them off before they could hurt me.
I like to suck the poison out before it can do worst damage than it should.
So much so, I end up having to travel the road of life with limited people around me.
I am not like Jenn or Evelyn in Basketball Wives.
Get mad at my “friend” and throw a few wine bottles and vases to prove a point.
Then after an intense meeting filled with tears, I kiss and make up and live happily ever after.
Like, nigga, you do realize you nearly killed me with that Chardonnay bottle right?
I have friends around me of years that I have fought with and we made it.
But, when it comes to new people and this new generation, I am ready to cut off once the going gets tough.
Especially in this entertainment industry, there ARE no friends.
Just a bunch of opportunist and career whores.
I give people chances upon chances (and boy do I give chances).
But, once I am hurt to the core, I usually just give up.
This year has already started out with a bang.
I lost my job and now I lost some people around me.
People who I thought I could trust that turned out to be as see through as a newly cleaned glass window.
Somehow, I think God was the reason things have ended up the way they did.
I am now going to build my own empire, but that road is a dark and lonely one.
One that I am extremely scared to travel,
but my bags are already packed.
I know that I have you guys reading to cheer me on…
…but, maybe I need me mostly?
I started to think…