i have been thinking about zen’s comment in the last entry.
zen is one of the foxhole’s loyal voices in the comment boxes.
you can read it ( x here ).
i understand where he is coming from.
i am not shy about admitting my struggles,
but i have started to notice something…
everyone wants something in their life.
that one thing that will make us completely happy.
from the instagram attentionistos,
the celebrities we stan for,
our family members living with us,
strangers we encounter everyday,
and those people who love to hate us.
even the fox that is writing this.
EVERYONE has that thing they feel they are missing that will lead to happiness.
sometimes its a couple things that will connect to one thing.
its the struggle of life to be perfectly honest.
so what do we do?
we wake up everyday to go to jobs we hate,
have a future stalker named “sallie mae”,
or fake careers and whole personas on social media…
…just to get that “thing”.
to add insult to injury,
we endure the torture of seeing people with what we want.
doesn’t it seem like everyone is getting “it”?
“why is it so easy for others to get “it”?”
“what’s wrong with me?”
these people don’t even deserve it half the time.
well it doesn’t have to be so bad.
i believe we need to work towards our happiness.
it ain’t easy,
but who said life was?
if everything came that easy,
we probably wouldn’t enjoy it as much.
once we get what we want,
after all that hard work and sacrifice,
it will feel like bustin’ a serious nut.
the one where your toes curl and it hurts as you bust a nut.
…and as you already know,
nothing feels better than that.
so focus on trying to get that “thing” that will make you bust a good life nut.
the process of getting the nut,
the grindin’ and the many positions it takes,
is usually the exciting part.
we just want the pleasure now now now,
but if it came so easy,
you probably wouldn’t enjoy the happy ending.
…right or wrong?