THE SUICIDE NOTE FROM ARLANA MILLER THAT TRIGGERED ME

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Suicide

 i sympathize heavily with those who take their own lives.
life is extremely hard and not fair for many.
people can think taking your own life is selfish

…But people and circumstances can make you feel like you are not worth it.

i know what it’s like to feel like you don’t matter.
that you tried your best and you didn’t feel accepted.
you try to find this love to complete you,
but you get used and tossed aside like trash.
you watch those same people move forward while you are left to heal.
i hate we are broken but they get the luxury move into new relationships.
how fun is that?!
/sarcasm

i’ll be 100 with you foxhole:

I would have been outta here a long time ago.

sometimes i feel like i wish that i did do it tbh.
the following really triggered me tbh.
it was from arlana miller from baton rouge, la.
she took her own life the other day but reading her final message

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THE EFFECTS OF SUICIDE

My neighbor took their own life the other night.
I heard everything.

we talk about those who take their own lives,
but we never speak on those who are affected by it.
family,
friends,
co-workers,
and people that were close to the person.
there are lives that are changed forever after someone ends their existence.
as a former suicidal person,
i fully understand the trauma of what it leaves behind.
on the other side,
i fully understand wanting to stop the pain too.
even writing about it today isn’t easy for me.
foxhole…

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THE LAST TIME I TRIED TO TAKE MY OWN LIFE

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Triggering content, Adult content, Suicide

2004-ish.
it was between a lot of “being down bad“.
i was fed up with life and all the bad cards i was being dealt.
something triggered me and i was ready to end it.
pills was my drug of choice.
i had consumed a few sleeping pills and a dramatic ass voicemail greeting.
when someone called,
i wanted them to hear my goodbyes that i was gone.
after that,
i turned my phone off and went to sleep…

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lets send some healing energy to azealia banks

things were so rough and emotionally draining these last few weeks,
i had this brief moment of a suicidal thought.
i was in a mindset of…

Why is it all the things I want are so difficult to achieve?

from males i’ve desired to the life i’ve been fighting for,
it all seemed like it was a waste of time for that moment.
ever since i started going to therapy,
i’ve been learning to start changing those thoughts into something better.
azealia banks has everyone concerned today.
she put this in her ig stories
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the 911 call heard around the world about tamar braxton

i always feel for those who discover someone who tried/taken their own life.
in my days of suicidal tendencies,
that wasn’t something i cared about as i was ready to leave it all behind.
now i see that can be a very traumatic experience to endure.
hollywood unlocked” released the 911 between david adefeso,
who happens to be tamar braxton’s boyfriend,
after he found her unconscious from a suicide attempt via “hollywood unlocked“…

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hang on tamar, hang on

i was just telling someone the other day how tamar braxton is good for tv.
so much so,
they can’t seem to find someone with her same magnetism on “the real“.
as dynamic as tamar is,
i wouldn’t peg her for someone who would try to take her own life.
maybe that’s the problem in thinking that because i’ve tried to do it on multiple occasions.
i couldn’t sleep last night so when i hopped on twitter,
i saw this news via “tmz“…
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